trip switch → l.h.

f i v e

[lower-case intended]

five 

laura

me and michael walked out of the small storage space and I breathed out, the events of just moments ago becoming to seem real, and sinking in. I glanced over to michael briefly and noticed him doing the same, while nervously biting his lip, a habit that he has had since we were young and it seemed to never grow out. not to say that I didn't find it unbelievably attractive.

"okay, so we're going to just..." he paused and I looked at him, with worried eyes

"go out there" he said, and I nodded solidly. I went first, slowly twisting the handle of the door, the door opened with ease, squeaking only a little

I looked both ways of the hallway before looking back to michael and nodding at him, signaling that it was clear. he followed me and I shut the door quickly, looking up I saw calum, standing at the end of the hallway, looking absolutely livid, before I could say anything calum was running towards us and michael was gripping my hand, pulling me behind him towards the door. in all of the havoc luke was standing by the kitchen looking utterly lost

"will someone please tell me what the hell is going on?" luke asked in exasperation as michael and I rushed past him, I barely had time to open my mouth before we ran outside and into michael's car, calum crashed out of the doorway after us and onto the front steps and I screamed at michael to hurry up, hitting his chest with my arm

we pulled out of the driveway, skidding over the pavement that had been lightly dusted with snowflakes. I saw calum storm back inside and I sighed in relief and let myself catch my breath. I looked over to michael and he was running a hand through his hair as he drove us toward a undetermined destination. the weeknd blasted on the car speakers, keeping the adrenaline rushing through my veins, pumping rapidly.

we ended up at a small random diner in the heart of downtown, michael stopped the car and I raised an eyebrow at him

"come on, lets try something new." he said, nodding hid head towards the diner and I smiled, unbuckling my seat belt and sliding out of the leather seat, the cool air greeting me in a swirl of tiny, delicate snowflakes. I breathed in the air and grinned at michael as he came to my side, gesturing to his arm, waiting for me to link it with my own. 

I smiled as the various aroma's filled my nose. michael looked over to me and grinned, shrugging while flashing me a goofy expression 

we ordered two burgers and soft drinks, as we waited for our food we sat at a small two-person booth, after we got our food we stayed inside the small diner for some time, our laughter filling the air, I watched him shake his head, still laughing he looked down, he ruffled his red hair with one hand and the simple action sent shivers down my body. I looked out the window into the snow and I couldn't help but think of what Luke was doing, if he was still with Beth. rage shot through my body for a moment, it frustrated me so damn much, what did he see in her? the anger was soon replaced by pain, It would never be me, I could never be that person, to make Luke so.. happy.

"laura? are you crying? whats wrong?" Michael's concerned voice cut my thoughts away and brought me back to reality. "what? no. I'm not crying michael." I stated, ducking my head down so I could wipe away any tears that had filled my eyes. Michael wore a skeptical look on his face as I met his gaze, one of his eyebrows raised.

I struggled to keep my expression calm, the collar of my shirt suddenly seemed unbearably tight around my neck, cutting off the flow of oxygen going to my lungs. I pushed down the panicked feeling rising in my chest, telling myself I was okay, I can get through this without Luke.

"hey come on, lets get out of here." I smiled at how he seemed to understand my need to escape the small diner, of which the walls seemed to be closing in on me.

when we got out of the diner I breathed in the chilly air in a deep breath. I had already begun to calm myself down and as I waited for Michael to unlock the doors I let my pale arms wrap around my sides, creating warmth for myself. I slid into the car in silence, as did Michael

I reached to turn the heat dial up, as my hand left the dial Michale grabbed it in his own, and I focused on our hands for what felt like forever, unable to look away from them

"laura" Michael breathed and I gave myself the power to look up to his eyes, finding myself getting lost in them

"look I'm still trying to wrap my head around what happened earlier, I can't believe that happened, because.." his voice faltered and he looked down, then he met my gaze again, his green eyes pircing mine with their intensity "well because I've been waiting for that to happen since I met you." he rushed out, his cheeks heating up immediately, my eyes widened and I was at a sudden loss at words "ahh fuck you don't feel the same" Michael sort of laughed as he spoke, while he ran his hands though his hair, pulling at the ends of it

"Michael no, I.." I trailed off for a second, licking my lips and without giving myself any time to process what I was saying "I like you Michael." I uttered out, somewhat with uncertainty. "you do?" he said, lifting his head up to meet my gaze and I nodded "yeah, I do." I said it with more confidence this time, it almost seemed as though I was trying to convince myself, more than him.

he shook his head, repeating my words to himself once, as if making sure it had actually been said

he grinned at me and I couldn't help feel a knot of anxiety in my stomach, but that was just butterflies, I told myself.

we drove home in silence, as the thought of a certain tall, blond loser lingered in the back of my mind.

I suddenly fond myself getting upset, this was a good moment, and I was happy about it. and this moment, it was with Michael, so why the hell was Luke all I could think about? what was wrong with me? why can't I get him out of my head. this is what I want, I repeated in my head over, and over again.

this is what I want