When he leaned forward I had a panic (!at the disco) attack inside. When his lips meet mine I thought about how wrong this is. But I didn't move away, for once I didn't freak out. It felt right, so I kissed him back.
After a few moments he pulled back. My mind was blurring one thought with another. Did I really just kids another guy? What if my mom finds out. Sit, I'm screwed.
I started into Cody's eyes which seemed to know what I was thinking.
"I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking-" Cody began.
"It's okay," I cut him off, "it's weird I don't care that you kissed me."
"You don't?" He said clearly confused.
"No, and now that that's clear I need to think and get some sleep. Night." I said before laying back down and turning my back to him.
"Night." He said back, clearly still confused.
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I awoke to the sound of music ( not the musical), Money, by escape the fate. It was my alarm, then I remembered last night. I jumped up only to find Cody laying on the far end of the bed curled into a ball facing me. Holy cow he looked so cute while he slept. Now I feel like a stalker watching him while he slept.
So now I stopping trying to stop convincing myself that I'm not gay. No one will know of course except Cody, and Antigone. She would kill me if I doesn't tell her this.
I looked back at Cody. Soooooooooooo cute. I almost didn't wake him. Almost. I grabbed his shoulders and shook the hell out of him. He awoke with a scream. I laughed as he untangled himself from the blankets. When he was finally free from the blankets evil clutches he looked at me with a face that clearly said what the hell.
"Okay now that your up you have to promise me something. " I told him waiting for an answer.
"Depends on what it is" He said yawning.
"I want you to promise me that you won't tell anyone about what happened last night. Except Antigone. If we don't tell her we would be dead in a hole."
"Yeah okay. But I have a question, why didn't you stop me last night I kind of expected you to." He said sleepyly.
"I didn't stop you because.....well.....I might......maybe.......I'm gay." I sputtered out looking for the right words.
"Really ig thought Antigone was just messing with me." He muttered.
"Antigone? What does she have to do with this?" I asked he was clearly supprised that I could hear him muttering to him self. I have really good hearing so it was easy to hear what people didn't want me to.
"Well yesterday she said that she knew that I liked you also she suspected that you might be gay. I thought she was just messing around with me but I guess not." He explained add he stood up and stayed walking to his closet.
"Thanks for telling me sooner."I said sarcastically.
Sorry he said as he searched through his closet for something to wear.
"I was kidding now what's for breakfast?"I asked.
"Anything you find after I find what I'm wearing today I'm going back to bed is to early to be up on a saterday. And we all can't wake up as fabulous as you do." He said as he set some clothes on the chair in the corner of the room and for back into bed.
"It's Saterday already?" I asked.
"Yep, now let me go to sleep." Cody said from his spot on the other end on the bed.
"Get out of your ball and get over here." I said with a boost of confidence, no one could see us so why not.
"Why I'm comfy."
"Fine I guess you don't want be to be happy." I said trying to make him feel bad. It worked, he turned around and faced me.
"Now what do you want." he asked. I grabbed his shoulder and dragged him to the middle of the bad where I was already lying down. I wrapped my arm around him. He looked shocked. Soon it wore off and he wrapped his arms around my waist and held me close like he was afraid that this was a dream and if he let go he would wake up. He rested his head on my chest and made himself comfortable.
"This is what I want. Right now I don't feel like a freak, I feel like I can trust you with anything. The only other person I trust like that is Antigone." I said quietly as I looked down at him, "Do you want to hear my full story, the parts that Antigone left out?"
He softly nodded yes. "I'll listen to anything you want to tell me." He whispered. Then I began.
"My dad left when I was seven after my youngest sister was born. At first my mom just cried, a lot. I took on a lot of responsibilities for a seven year old. I took care of my siblings while my mom went to work. It went like that till a few years ago when my mom started drinking a lot and took all of her anger out on me. I put up with it so that she wouldn't take her anger out on my brothers or sisters. Last year her boyfriend started beating me as well. Then for a while it stopped till last week when my mom got fired from another job and her and her boyfriend beat me every night this week." The hole time I talked Cody looked at me with a sad and understanding look on his face.
"Sorry, but your mom sounds like the queen of bitches." He said when I was done talking. I gave him a small smile.
"I know that's what Antigone said, and thanks for listening to me."
