April 11,2013
Dear person whoever you may be,
I don't really know who to write these letters to. All I know is I want my story out there for others to understand.
See my life isn't as bad as others. But at the same time it's not as good either.
I've had two really close friends...no never mind that's hard for me to talk about I always cry but then again lately I've been crying all the time. Maybe it's because im pmsing which is what my friend thinks..but I think it's because reality is finally sinking in. And I realize how lost and confused and alone I am.
I guess it's hard for others to understand, they say I'm fucked up that I'm an emotional wreck. Maybe I am. Maybe that's why my friends change a lot. Well actually not as much as they use to. I actually am friends with a handful that I've been close with since middle school when they were all discovering sex and drugs and sexting and their sexuality and life and cool stuff like that, while me..well I was always at my house. Doing none of those things. Okay I lied. I only did one and the one time I did do it I regretted it immediately after. But I can't say which one I did. It's classified I'm sorry. I know keeping secrets isn't good but I don't have the heart to admit it.
Well I have to go to school tomorrow. My best friends coming back finally I've missed her she's been....away....for a while. And I get to see the guy who I am head over heels in love with but what's crazy about that is it seems he actually cares about me to.
Bye for now,
Kay
