Falls To Pieces (Attila/The Amity Affliction)

Never Alone

"Lex... Lex wake up" I heard distant voices call my name as my body was shook back and forth.

My eyes opened and the first thing I saw was the laptop showing the credits of the movie. I slept? Yeah I slept

"Hmm" I answered the person calling me

"I'm heading back to my dorm" Joel said getting out from the covers. No dont leave me, I don't want to feel and be alone.

"Don't leave me" I said with a crack. Joel turned back around and walked back towards me

"I need to sleep" he replying with a smile making me laugh. Soon enough he joined I'm the laughing but my laugh then soon turn to tears.... The drugs wore off and I can't have any the whole day ahead.

"Lex don't cry" this only made me cry even more

"Don't leave me.... I don't want to be alone in my thoughts" I breathed out holding on to Joel as I cryed on his bare chest.

"Listen Lex... Your never alone... I'll always be here... The others will always be here. Your Never ever alone" Joel words made me feel more secure.

"Please stay" all Joel did was crawl back to bed and held me close to home... Never have I ever felt more safe and unthreatened.

"Let's watch another movie" he suggested while I checks the time... It was only 4:15 am

I grabbed a bag of crisps from my dressing table. "You have 50 shades of gray?" Joel exclaimed clicking on the movie without hesitation.

I giggled a little and shook my head as the movie started. "Wanna try what they do?" I asked with a smile... I was only joking

"Umm..." Was all that be out of Joel's mouth as I looked up at his now very red face making me burst out in laughter.

"I'm only having a laugh..." I said in between laughs.

The lady was now entering Mr greys office... Please be cute... I hopped while holding on to Joel's waist .... The guy turned around and he wasn't all that. I rolled my eyes and drought my hand back to where it was before... As my finger tips slightly traced Joel's abs.

I heard him take a sharp breath as my hand rested on his abs. I wonder how big his co- oh god no don't think about this now! I shook off my thoughts and went back to watching the movie.

I wasn't paying attention much to the movie... Well that is until the sex scene came on. I pretty much felt a little tingle in my lower stomach... No! No! No!

I tried to look away from the screen and distract my self from the scene but all that could distract me from tge movie was Joel... And that didn't make things better.

I shut the laptop and put it on my desk... "We should knock out now" I suggested laying down facing away from Joel.

He didn't say anything... I just felt a body lay next to me and a hand rest on my waist. Then I body was pulled close to his.

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I woke up to shifting on my bed. I looked around a bit confused. Did I sleep with Ben? That was all I could remember from last night... Until I turned and saw a very adorable sleeping Joel. Oh yeah I thought about fucking Joel while watching 50 shades of grey after crying to him that I was alone...

I got out of bed slowly and then shook Joel awake. He opened his eyes and looked around confused "this isn't my dorm" he said with his hair all over the place.

"Yeah we had a sleepover" I explained while getting my cloths out for the day and my toiletries. Joel threw on his cloths from yesterday and we walked out the dorm together

"I'll sent you later then?" I nodded to Joel's suggestion as he went to his dorm and I headed to the showers.

Taking a quick shower I decided to wash my hair with my cherry and strawberry scented shampoo and conditioner.

I got dressed into a Black Sabbath T-shirt and black ripped jeans... Then I wore a hodded jumper and a leather jacket on top.

I got to my dorm and started with my makeup... Foundation, concealer, powered, eyeshadow, eye liner and mascara. I then let go of my hair and just left it to dry on its own... Putting on my all black vans I got out of my dorm and headed to Hannah and Bells room

The say after tomorrow was the trip and I was excited! I need to package shit tone of.... Drugs.... Yeeeaaahh

I got to their dorm and didn't even bother knocking... I walked right in and jumped on Bells bed. Waling her up o then jumped on Hannah's ... But she wasn't there

"What the fuck Lex" I heard Bell groan

"Where Hannah" I asked started to feel depressed and anxious again... Not cause Hannah isn't here... Just cause I'm sobber...

"I dont know... She said she went to stay with a friend out of campus and then head to work... Shell be back by tomorrow" I nodded at Bella's explanation and sat by her bed "are you okay?" She asked

I nodded

"Well you don't look okay" I gave her the look and she just looked away

"Let's go get something to eat" I suggested with no emotion in my tone.

We headed out and reached the cafeteria. I ordered a chicken pie and an iced cappuccino. Bella ordered a croissant and a monster energy drink.

"In the morning?" I asked as we took our seats. She nodded a d we carries on with pointless conversation...

"So what happens last night? I left Ben and Austin in the use room" Bella said taking a bit off her breakfast while I took a sip from my glorious heaven known as an iced cappuccino.

"Well... I could hear everything but I couldn't really see much... But I heard Austin arguing with Ben that he didn't care about me" I explained taking a bit off my chicken pie...

"Really? Well he's a dick and I don't really think he cares... He just feels responsible" I nodded at Bella's conclusion and went on chatting about the trip that was in the next two days.

"What do you think is gonna happen?" I asked

"I don't really know... But what I do know is that there will be a lot of drinking and sex"

"But teachers" I said

"This is university Lexi... We have fucking condom dispensers in the bathroom" she has a point

"I'm really excited" I said finishing my pie and then started sipping on my coffee...

"Lexi!" I heard a familait voice call me. Looking around Mt eyes landed on.... Fronz... Fuck....
He started to move towards me and Bella and I just wanted to crawl into a hole

"What the fuck does he want" Bella spat with disgust I feel ya mate.

"Lexi... I've been looking for you... How do you feel?" He sat down next to me and gave Bella a smile... she just roles her eyes and carried on drinking her monster...

"I'm fine... Leave" I said finishing my drink as well as Bella.

"Don't need to be a Bitch about it... There's a party tonight at the frat house. Do you pretty lady's want to come?" I looked at Bella knowing she would obviously want to go.. and so did I... But I couldn't... No drugs till tomorrow.

"No we can't... Now please leave" I spoke up... But he didn't move.. "Fine then... We'll leave" I added as me and Bella got IP and walked put of the place.