Falls To Pieces (Attila/The Amity Affliction)

Nasty Mouth

Me and Ben burst open into his dorm our lips being one with each other .... He threw me to the bed and climbed on top. Then it hit me. Why the fuck do I always sleep with the Bullies?

"Ben" I said slowly cause i was still high... Which I guess it came out as a moan then a call.

He kissed down my neck as his right hand found its way to my tit "Ben" I said sounding more demanding than before

"What?" He slurred into my neck

"Stop" i said. He just shook his head and started nibbling on my soft spot. Crap that shit always turns me on!

"Ben, Stop" i repeated only to have him squeeze my boob lightly "this will be classified as rape if you dont stop"

He sighed heavily and got off me as I sat up. He sat next to me looking up and closing his eyes.

"Then why the fuck did you come with me here?" He asked, obviously still drunk.

"I don't know... Cause I'm high?" I answered in a quiet and slow tone

"Yours so calm all the time... Even when me and the others give you hell" I smiled at Ben's commented cause it reminded me of a song that I loved

"When you see my face I hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell" I sang softly with a giggle

"When you walk my way hop it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell" Ben continued making me smile as he did the same

"When you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well!" We both sang... Or yelled... As we laughed. He's not as much of an asshole as he acts around his friends.

"And to answer your question... I'm not always calm" I whisper looking down at my fingers with a smile... The high was still there, but it was less from before

"But you always seem calm" Ben laughed playfully pushing me

"Its the weed" I confess "when im sober i get... grumpy" i whisper

"Oh so that's why you smoke so much... Well at least it better than drinking" he replied. Why was he being so nice to me? Was he trying something he was dared to do by his douche friends?

"Well you know what they say, a stoner girl over a boozy girl" I said shaking off all the thoughts and doubts that were racing through my mind

"But smoking gives you cancer"

"So does drinking" we look at each other for a while and my heart starts pounding. I start feeling a bit pist off as my mind traces back to sleeping with Fronz... Twice. Aaannnd my High is gone.

"Why are you being so nice?" It just came out

"What?"

"You heard me... Why are you beinf so nice" fuck i hated being sober! I turn into a depressed stupid fucking bitch! And anytime I'm sober I'm not near everyone. I'm all by myself either burning stuff or breaking stuff... Or both. There was something about being with people when I'm sober that makes me feel on edge, I feel... Threatened

"I can be nice" Ben Stated looking at me with a confused expression

"Oh bullshit Ben, you always act shit toward me and my friends why the fuck are you so nice to me now?!" Fuck shut up! Shut up! I really need to get high! Pull yourself together Lexi! This is the first time in a long time I was acting like this. Mainly because I've been High all the time when I'm around others. And being sober made me mad. Cause I start to feel remorse. I start to feel depressed. I started to feel regret. And because of that, I start to feel mad... At myself. So I would take it out on others