Bleeding Hearts

Chapter 11

Amiya

It's been a month since my visit to the hospital. I'm managing my depression well. I don't take those pills. I don't see a therapist. I pray. Something, I've been lacking on. I haven't been in church like I should've been. Now, I am. Every Sunday, front and center. Sometimes, I can hear my brother talking to me.

Tonight, I'm going to this award show. I'm excited. I've never really won anything, not anything this big so this is really special to me. Even if I don't win, at least I was good enough to get nominated.

However, right now, I'm playing in my boyfriends hair. I really didn't know what he wanted done so I decided on his little man bun. I thought it was so cute the first time, even though he refuse to admit it, he somewhat liked it too.

August was doing really well for himself. He had gotten signed and was on his grind, as he would say. I was proud of him. I know his brother was very proud of him.

Honestly, I was very thankful for August. God has a way of putting people in your life to better you. I feel August is that for me in the weirdest of ways. Although he changed me, he's taught me. I might not be in love with him but, I was really grateful that God placed someone like him in my life. He made me happy. Another reason, I was slowly getting away from my depression. He constantly keeps me happy, or lightening my mood. He was so good to me, even on days where I was a bitch to him. I felt as though he loved me unconditionally. He never said it, but I felt it. He gives me the same feel as my brother used too. Maybe that's why I'm so attracted to him.

We argued constantly. Petty Wap Augusta. He irked my nerves but I didn't care. I always made sure, I was petty right along with him.

Me: "Alright, I'm all done." He threw his head back in my lap and puckered his lip. "What?"

August: "Gimme kiss." I looked at him and frowned.

Me: "No." I said bluntly.

August: "Ite. A hunna'." He got up and pulled his pants up, revealing his back dimples.

I smiled, watching him look at himself in the mirror. I laid back on my bed and looked at my nails.

Me: "Let's go out."

August: "Where?"

Me: "Nail salon." He hissed. "Please baby. I need a fill in before tonight." I whined.

August: "Yeen going no where til I get my kiss." He said climbing on top of me.

Me: "Um, foreal?"

August: "I'm for very serious." I giggled as he attacked me in kisses.

Me: "Okay Aug!" I said while giggling.

He smiled and kissed my stomach. I giggled thinking about my mother.

Me: "Guess what my mother said the other day?"

August: "What?" He asked unbuttoning my shorts.

Me: "Boo." I whined.

August: "Lemme satisfy you." I sighed. "Tell me what she said."

Me: "She sat me and Amir down and said she wants another grandchild."