Starry-Eyed ★

three

exploding emotions 🌟

Hours goes by and we are
still here and my mood
worsens.

A red flame flashes through
me and I'm now bitterly
laughing and my mind
spins too fast for me.

❝ All this trying for
no good reason ❞

I yelled at him before biting
my tongue and my mouth
explodes in bitterness.

His eyes shows his emotion:
sad, confused, and hurt.

I quickly spit out an apology
and I'm crying in his arms
again while he rubs my back.

Why I am like this?

Another emotion fills me
and it's envy.

I don't understand how he
can be so happy and optimist
about things even when he
knows that they always
leave you broken and down.

Why can't I be happy?

I can never be patient or love
somebody that much but
he can; he loves me more
than I can remember.

He always hugs me tightly
after I fall into one of my
violent episodes.

He's always there for me
and I can't do the same
for him anymore.

When I'm long gone, I hope
he remembers how I used
to smile so happily because of him and how my life was always so complete with him.

🌟

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