Reasons to Love Kuki Urie

Art [Angst]

He was numb.

At least it's what he thought. So why was he affected right now? Why did he felt this stinging sensation through his chest as he saw her again?

He closed his eyes, taking in a deep breath as he thought back to a dreadful memory. One he never wanted to remember, yet something he never had the guts to forget.

The day she said goodbye.

-[flashback]-

You sat still beside him. The dark sheets of your shared bed giving off a what seem like a more colder vibe than usual. He was half-naked, only his black pants, his leather belt and socks. Still depressed, as usual.

His head hung low as his back arched, letting out a pissed off sigh. You never really knew what to do.... these past days, at least. As if having a promotion-obsessed boyfriend wasn't enough, you were always there.

You were there to watch him overwork himself. You were there to watch him stab his friends... his real friends, on the back. You saw him losing sight of what was right and wrong. You saw him obsessing about how it should be his name coming out together with compliments from his fellow's lips.

You watched him ruin himself. You watched as his inner demons possessed the sanity left out of him.

Sometimes you ask yourself, 'Does he love me?' and being a lovesick and delusional person you are... you would answer yourself 'Yes. He does.'

Lies.

You knew they were all lies. Yes, you had a delicate ring wrapped around your finger. Yes, you were in a once healthy relationship, but you knew all that there is... is merely child's play. It's something you knew was unstable.

"Urie, just stop..."

He turned to look at you. Rage written all over his eyes. 'this again'. He thought.

"For fuck's sake Urie! Just move on already! Grow up!" you screamed pulling your hair in the process.

He rolled his eyes. No words coming out of his mouth as he slammed his fist against the door. Strong enough to leave some cracks.

"Shut up." Was all he said.

"Oh come on! Urie! You've been ruining yourself! You've been bailing out on your friends, you've been more obsessive than before, and you almost killed Mutsuki in the process!! And now that you've got what you want, now that you've been promoted, what the else do you need?!"

He scratched his head annoyingly. "Everything!"

"Am I not enough?!" you asked. You hoped that maybe, somewhere in that twisted mind of his he would answer a yes. That maybe, just maybe, he 'd say that he was doing this for you. That it was for the future. That it was for a you and him.

"Tch...."

"Answer me, Urie!!"

"Enough [f/n]..." he answered dismissively, rubbing his temples

"Answer me!! You selfish bastard!" you screamed. You didn't want to push him, because you knew what was to come out of his mouth was something that would shake your make believe world apart.

"No."

You swallowed a heavy lump in your throat.

"And I finally got the truth out of your mouth huh?" you said calmly, before sitting yet again on the lone bed as your lover still had his back against you.