Downpoured(BoyxBoy)

Chapter Six: Boys Interrupted

Chapter Six
(Warning: has some sexual content)

It's been several days since I last saw Jared. I really missed my best friend. Lately I've been completely avoiding everyone. More so then before.

I think it's the guilt that is eating me up inside. I had hurt Jared enough for him to want to flee to another continent. He was my only true friend and now I had no one.

Alex had tried to make plans with me a few times but I would make up some excuse as to why I couldn't. I really liked hanging out with him from the start, but now it would feel wrong. Almost as if I were betraying Jared. I know it sounded stupid but I couldn't stop seeing it that way.

Alex and I had really hit it off quite quickly. Seeing him on the floor of my library, looking the way he did, made my stomach flip. I had to admit it to myself. There was something there. Just like the small something I felt when Jared had kissed me.

I didn't know what to do with this revelation. I never questioned whether I was straight or not. I've never been attracted to another guy before. I just couldn't wrap my head around it.

I decide to leave theses thoughts and unanswered questions for another time. I was at the park sitting on a bench near a small pond. I come here on most of my Saturday mornings now.

I figured I needed to start going to places that could relax me. I mean, so many things have been thrown at me this month. I've been dealing with more emotionally related issues than I had in years. And I was emotionally retarded. I didn't know what the fuck to do with them.

Before I could zone of into the view before me, I felt a presence plop down beside me. I look over to see Alex siting on the edge of the bench. He didn't look at me and had his gaze fixed on the pond.

Speak of the devil and he shall appear.  What are the odds eh? The situation turns awkward when neither of us say anything so I try to break tension.

"locked out of house again eh"? He looks almost relieved at the sound of my voice and slowly turns to look at me.

"No, just needed to get away...and I just happened to see you here." There was a sadness to his eyes. 

"Yeah me too, I've had a rough month", I chuckle bitterly.

"Do you want to talk about it"?  I ask. He shakes his head and mumbles a 'not really'. I let out a deep breath, "yeah me neither". Well, aren't we stoic as fuck? 

We certainly shared similar personality traits. It gets quiet for several minutes until Alex suddenly snaps his head in my direction.

"Have you been avoiding me"? He asks with a frown. I look at him completely thrown off. Blunt now, are we? I look down at my hands not responding right away.

"Did I do something wrong because I thought we were actually getting on pretty well..."

I'm avoiding you because you make my stomach feel weird. 

I shake away the thought. Shut up thoughts! "No no, you didn't do anything wrong. I've just...been in a slump lately. A lot is going on". I explain. He drops his tense shoulders and smiles with relief.

"Good because I thought maybe I could stop being a loner for once". He says with humor, but I know deep down it wasn't a joke to him. He was lonely. I wrap my arm around his shoulder.

"How could I not be your friend, I mean you practically just begged me. I'm not a person with out conscience". I say with a smirk. He chuckles and throws my arm off of him.

"As if, you know you love me and would be nothing without me"! He says smugly.

"Oh definitely, you're my only reason for living", I sigh dramatically.