Chapter Eight (Short chapter)
I woke up feeling a lot warmer than usual. My eyes squinted as they adjusted to the sunlight. I felt something soft against me and I remembered that Alex had slept over. I peered down at his sleeping face.
His hair was all over the place and I swear I saw some drool. I try to shift away but realize that our legs are tangled together. I sigh and decide to wait for him to wake up like the decent person I am.
I look over at the pictures I have hung up on my walls. My thoughts wander to Jared as I scan the picture of us at the beach. I wonder what he's doing right now? And who was he doing it with? What if he found someone else and forgot all about me? The thought made me jealous. Jared is mine.
No he's not. My subconscious argued.
I sigh internally. No...he's not. But he is my best friend and I do want to fix this situation we're in. I thought back to all the times we spent together.
Looking back, I really didn't understand how I didn't realize it. He was always at my side. Always doing what made me happy. He never thought about himself because that's just how wonderful he is. Yeah, we were constantly joking around, but at the end of the day he was always there for me and vice versa.
I wish he didn't leave. I just want to talk to him and make everything right again. Hopefully he really is just gone for a month, considering there are only three weeks left.
Alex begins to shift against me. Gosh, hopefully it's to wake up. I look down waiting for him to open his eyes. This was all too romantic for me. This wasn't what I wanted. "Hey sleeping beauty, wake the hell up. I have to piss".
He looks up at me through squinted eyes and glares. "Well aren't you just a ball of sunshine in the morning". He says grouchily. I kick his legs away and swiftly get up from under him.
"Mhm, come back, don't go!" I ignore him and make my way over to the bathroom. Thank gosh I had my own because I probably wouldn't make it to the one out in the hallway. I really did have to piss. After I did my business, I walked out to find Alex looking through my closet.
"You have the most amazing closet ever". He exclaims once he notices my presence. "You have really good taste. You're clothes make you even more attractive then you already are". I felt my face get a little warm from the compliment.
We've done a few things together, but complimenting each other wasn't one of them. I mean, I find Alex to be extremely attractive, but to say that to him is a different thing all together. Not because I don't compliment people. It's just weird, okay.
"Alright, stop looking through my crap". I say as I step in to move him out. I swear if were were the same size he'd steal everything and never look back. The kid has stars in his eyes for crying out loud. So I dress nice, calm down.
"Fine, we can come out of the closet together". He jokes. I shake my head ready to walk out, but instead turn around to face him.
"Alex...are you...what do you identify as exactly?" I ask hesitantly. He stares down at the floor thoughtfully and raises his hand to rub is chin.
"Well, so far I've only really came out to myself, you know?" His sits down on my bed and I follow in suit. "At first I was only willing to admit that I was bi because it's not as scary as saying you're gay".
He pauses for a moment. "I literally have never felt any type of attraction for a girl. Honestly, they fucking scare me. So yeah...I'm pretty gay". He finishes.
I nod my head thoughtfully. "I'm not really sure where I stand. Obviously I'm not completely straight, but I have been attracted to girls on several occasions as well. I guess the thing I'm most struggling with is the fact that I have to label myself, you know?" I said in a mumbled voice.
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Storie d'amoreJace has always been the guy that's hard to figure out. He's not the average jock. He's intelligent, but tends to alienate any unnecessary emotions. No one at school really knows him. I mean, except for his best friend Jared. Maybe even Alex. On...
