Torn (James Maslow Fan Fiction)

Chapter 5

I walked in to our apartment and as soon as James saw me he started getting up from the couch and headed towards his room.

"What the hell is your problem?!" I said raising my voice.

"What's my problem?! More like what's YOUR problem?" James said shouting back.

"I don't have a problem but obviously you do! You've been acting like an ass lately for no apparent reason!!" I shouted.

"I'm being an ass?! Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately?!"

"What is that suppose to mean?"

"You're the one who acts like a complete different person every time you're around Kaleb!"

"That's not true!!!" I snapped.

"Yes you have! Every time you're around him you tune me out like I don't even exist! It's always all about Kaleb!"

"I'm sorry! I didn't know you felt that way." I said lowering down my tone.

"Why would you? Lately every thing you do is all about Kaleb. You've been hanging around him a lot lately."

"Thats because Kaleb is my friend and we have school together. We're allow to have other friends. You have Kendall and you don't see me complaining."

"Thats different."

"How is that different? You spend all your time with him at work. Then you guys come over to play video games and I don't get mad or feel left out. I know that we both need some space from each other and hang out with different people. We aren't join to the hip."

"Its different because Kendall's a guy but I bet if I was hanging with a girl you would feel the same way."

"So you're basically jealous of Kaleb."

"You can call it what ever you want." James said annoyed.

"James you're my best friend and I love you! There is no one in this world that will ever replace the love I have for you! You have been there for me through the good and the bad! I have told you many things about me that I haven't told any body else! You're the only person in this world that I can trust. You're my best friend and you'll always be my best friend!" I said trying to hold back my tears.

I couldn't cry in front of James or any body else. Crying makes you look weak so I always try to hold my tears back until I was completely alone.

I don't like being emotional in front of people or even worse showing my true emotions. So now was not the time for me to cry.

"Well I feel like I'm losing my best friend." James spoke breaking the silence.

"James I'm really sorry! I didn't mean to make you feel that way. But I'm not going any where and neither are you." I said getting closer to him.

I took his face in my hands.

"Look at me James. I love you and you know better than any body that I hardly say those three words. I barely say it to my parents which is terrible on my part."

"You should tell them you love them more often." James said.

"I know and I'll try telling them every time they call. But you should never EVER feel like you're losing me because that's never gonna happen. I would never choose some body else over you!" I said staring at his beautiful hazel eyes.

"But you love Kaleb." James said disappointed.

"I'm not in love with Kaleb. At least not that I know of. I like Kaleb like a lot. He's really cute and a gentleman but I'm not in love with him yet. Which probably won't ever happen because Kaleb and I are just friends nothing more. He made that pretty clear today." I said feeling hurt from what Kaleb told me in the parking lot.

"You actually told Kaleb how you feel about him?!" James asked.

"NO!! Are you crazy?!!! I would never do that!! We had a conversation in the school parking lot earlier today after class and he said that we were just friends. I guess I'm not pretty enough like most girls are."

James put his arms around me giving me a much needed hug.

I wrapped my arms around him holding him tight. I didn't want to let him go.

Oh how I missed his hugs. Not being able to have his body around me is some thing that I don't ever want to go through again.

He lift my chin up so I would be able to see his face.

"Kim you are beautiful! If Kaleb doesn't see that then he must be blind and he doesn't deserve you. Any guy that doesn't see that are stupid and you deserve a guy who values your true beauty." He said holding my face closer to his.

"You're just saying that because you're my best friend and you feel the need to make me feel better."

Both of our foreheads were now touching. I can feel my breathing was getting a little heavy.

I have never realized how attractive James really was. I guess I never really thought of James in that way before. I have always thought of James as my best friend and like the brother I didn't have.

"I'm not only saying it to make you feel better. I'm saying it because it's the truth. You're very beautiful and I don't understand why you can't see it."

"Because I don't feel beautiful."

"Well you are and I don't want to hear you say that you're not."

I nodded and wrapped myself around him bearing my face on his neck. I can feel his hug tightening.

"I missed you so much!! You not talking to me for almost two days was killing me." I told him while we still had our arms around each other.

"And I missed you! Not talking to you was the hardest thing I have ever done. Lets not fight again."

"I don't ever want to go through that again."

"Lets celebrate our friendship with pizza and a movie. My treat." James said kissing the top of my head.

"Sounds good!" I said smiling.

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Thanks for reading Torn!! I really hope you like this chapter! Its a little emotional and I want to know what you think is happening between Kimberly and James! Do you think she is falling in love with James or has she always loved him but never realized it? Let me know in the comments. :) .xx ~Maslow