Blood [#Wattys2015 | #JustWriteIt | #FreshStart]

CHAPTER 12

There I came. I knew I was kept outside the apartment again so I didn't walk by the reception. From far distance in the sky, I saw Julia, Aaron and Jason all stand and they seemed to discuss something. Aaron looked quite angry but Julia and Jason were different. They appeared sad, worried and weary. In fact, from ten meters distance, I could hear and see them properly but I couldn't just flap the wings to make me stand in the sky and hear them because the sound from the wings would restrain me. Plus, his balcony only has ceiling-to-floor window, I would be caught easily so I choose to stick myself into the wall nearby his porch – another instinct – like a real bat.

"Jason! She doesn't trust you. Wake up! Just kill her; otherwise she will destroy this world. Do it before you lose your own wings!" – It was Aaron's voice.

I smirked at myself and wondered why I still survived up until now. I was a vampire – the creature that deserved to die. More than that, I was the danger of the world. Not only this, but I also threated the life of the one I loved. Jason was just too good to be true and I was such a damn ungrateful creature.

"No! You were there – at the battle, Aaron! If I had wanted to kill her, I would've done that 14 years old ago. I trust her!"

Jason...he trusted me. As always. Suddenly, I thought of myself and felt so guilty. I rarely believed him. My heart hurt.

Julia still kept quiet.

"Yes, I was there, right behind your sister. You didn't start it off. Ella – Her real Mother cut her head off – in front of me. Even though Nora wasn't my sister, I was hurt. She was a part of our world. Don't you remember? That was why you killed her parents. You had a reason. Sooner or later, Ally will know the truth; Sean is here. You have no idea what he is gonna tell her. So at the end, the only thing she cares is that you killed her parents. Do you think she will care about your sister and how important she was to you? No! She never trusts you! Why would you? Wake up. What are you? You're losing yourself and putting more than 65 million people at risk because of a vampire!"

Off he left; I heard him slam the door.

"I liked Ally! I see her as my sister. But we and this world – all of us count on you, Jason! You gotta decide. Whichever the decision is, I'm always behind you!"

It was Julia's turn to leave Jason. Now, he was alone. And I was still there. There is no space to stand. I tried hard to stick my back into the flat wall and cried. I also tried hard not to sob so I just hiccupped. I just didn't know where to start to think about what I heard. Jason killed my parents. But it didn't matter anymore. Wasn't that so fair play? My parents killed his sister, too. What was even more, my parents started it first so that meant it was their fault. I didn't care whatever reason was but it was so obvious that angels just fulfil their duty which they had to take care of humans. And there was nothing wrong with it. It was just vampires that didn't deserve to survive at the very start.

More importantly, even though my parents killed his sister, he was still in love with me. I shook my head; he was so silly. He shouldn't have done that because when the truth was blanked out, I had no face to meet him again. I couldn't love an angel whose sister was killed my parents. I didn't have that courage. He should've really killed me. On the other hand, if it hadn't been because of him, I could've been one of those dark things and ruined this perfect world.

I gradually left the wall and fluttered my wings. The wind in London – soft but seemed so strong to me which made me lose my balance. On the other hand, it was quite nice because it helped me to weep my tears and dried them. Flying through layers of cloud, I told myself to be stronger. To make my own decision.

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Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, Julia and Jason didn't go to school at all. I went to school with my eyes casting around all the time; though I wanted to avoid them as carefully as possible. So what was I looking for? I didn't know! – Perhaps just an image of Jason appearing somewhere because I too missed him. And today was Friday – there was still no sign of them. They were absent four days in a row without reason. Their names were on the board that they were at the last level of warning level. If they kept being absent, they would be kicked out of school. Sometimes, Sophie and other teachers contacted me to ask for Jason because he was my guardian angels but I had no idea. Vivian also met me at school but without some normal greeting, we didn't talk much to each other and didn't seem to be closer as when we used to have Julia hanging around. My life at college became gloomier since then. No more laugh in canteen, no more funny argument between Julia and me, no more sweet time together with Jason, and not much an appearance of a proper smile on my face. Day by day, I told myself not to worry about them or more specifically, not care about them. They were angels, protecting people and other angels, there shouldn't be a problem coming to them. Plus, the more I cared about them, the more I couldn't forget them.