The Life of Death.

Part 2.

"You're home already?" Jude said as she looked over at me walking into our apartment from the kitchen. I smiled and grabbed her by her waist nuzzling her neck taking in her color. It was a light color purple, lavender. It made me feel complete.

"I missed you.." I said silently to her before she moved out of my hold of her and kissed me tenderly with a smile. When she moved off of my lips I just wanted more... and more.. and, more.

I lifted her up bridal style and laid her on the couch. I straddled upon her and leaned into a deep kiss of a dark cold red and a warm white.

About an hour later after silent moans, sweat, the saying of each other's names, and the digging of nails in one's back. I carried Jude to our bedroom and laid her down and cuddled with her till we fell asleep. That night changed almost everything. Almost...

The next day was one of my occasional days off. I mostly had nothing to do other than Jude. If you know what I mean. But most of the day I spent it with Cole.

"So do you think last night was the 'one'?.." Cole said to me. I looked down at the grass and picked up a rock and skipped it across the lake that we were walking around. "I.. I don't really know Cole-man.. We've really been wanting to have a kid.. We're ready. She's been saying she's been wanting a son.. You know, to carry on our passed down family job." "Business is a hard as fuck job Leo.. And you don't always get what you want, you know? I mean it could always be a girl.. What the hell would you do then? Have another? What if that one is a girl too..? Im sorry bro.. Im just making a point." cole said as he patted my back firmly. I weakly smiled and sighed. "Its just.. Its hard.. We've been trying for a while now and I hasn't worked.. at all." I said as I looked across the scenery around us two. Cole gave me some more wise advice from his experiences and we headed back to our apartments about at 1:32 p.m. 

When I walked into my home, something didn't feel correct. Something was wrong, with Jude.

"Jude, where are you my love..?" I said as I set my jacket onto the couch. It smelled black and dusty, with a metallic smell of red. Shit.. She's self-harming again... I thought to myself as i found my way to the bathroom that was locked. I banged on the locked door till she finally unlocked it. I cringed as i saw the tears running down her face and the blood dripping from her wrist to the white floor. I picked her up and took her outside to our car. It was sunset now, a peachy smell filled the air on the drive to the hospital.

An hour or two later filled with stress, stiches, and sobbing we finally went home. The drive back was silent but filled with many words. When we emerged from the car i walked over to Jude and kissed her passionately and she hugged me tightly.

That night was consumed with apologies, depression spikes, and what ever else you could think of. We loved each other for that. and that's why we've been together since we were at a very young age. Even if I stress her out more or worry her, even if she makes me mad and depressed at the same time, we're here fore each other, and nothing can separate us. Ever again...