World Of Sacrifice

Chapter 16

*Andy*

I pulled up to Ashley's house and walked right in. Lacey was laying on the couch draped over one arm and Zea was on the other one. Jaylen was on the floor sleeping with a PlayStation controller in her hand. Darius was asleep in his car seat on the side of the couch in front of Zea. I assumed Kota was in the nursery since Lacey didn't have him with her. I walked to the back room where Ashley was asleep in his bed already. I rolled my eyes and went over to Zea and shook her gently. She groaned and moved her head and I smiled shaking her gently. She jolted awake and immediately swung and I caught her wrist before her fist came in contact with my face. I looked at her, so jumpy she was scared she was going to get attacked again. I knew it, her face relaxed and she took a deep breath.

"Damn honey you scared me to death, what are you doing here?" she asked whispering to me.

"I came home and you were gone it scared me. Then Ashley called me and I came to get you guys" I told her.

Zea nodded and I grabbed Darius's car seat and Zea bent down who picked up Jaylen and she groaned and laid her head on her shoulder and wrapped her arms around her. We carried them to the car and then got in and drove off. The ride was silent and then Zea cleared her throat,

"Why were you so scared?" she asked.

I glanced at her and then the road.

"With you know who being out and about I thought something happened to you and the kids. I know Juliet came to talk to you"

Instantly her head snapped in my direction.

"How do you know that?"

"Because she told me. She came to talk to me. I told her to stay away from you and my kids" I explained.

Zea nodded.

"Oh...apologize to you?"

I glanced at her again.

"Yeah? How did you know that?" I asked.

Zea shrugged and moved her hair away from her eyes.

"That's why she seen me. She just wanted to say she was sorry. She wanted to apologize. That's all" she explained to me.

The rest of the car ride was silent.
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*Zea*

As soon as I put the kids to bed I went to the kitchen to get a drink and Andy followed.

"Andy do you think people can change?" I asked.

Andy took a sip of his water that he got.

"Yeah, why?"

"Well I was just thinking maybe one day you could hmm pft" I,mumbled at,the end.

"What? One could I hmm pefet? What?" Andy asked confused.

I sighed and put my hand on my hip.

"One day could you possibly forgive Juliet?"

Andys eyes got wide and he looked at me.

"What?! You're joking right?!"

I bit my lip.

"You said it yourself people can change. I think she's changed babe."

Andy slammed down his empty cup.

"Are you seriously thinking about forgiving her?!!" He yelled.

I shushed him because our kids were sleeping and I didn't want them up.

"I'm trying. I can't hold onto rage forever like you" I explained.

Suddenly he raised his eyebrows but he was angry.

"What's that suppose to mean?"

I covered my hands with my sweat shirt brining my arms into my chest nervously.

"You know what I mean Andy"

Andy glared at me.

"No I don't why don't you enlighten me"

I sighed. Here we go with this fight in a way I see it coming. I shouldn't have said anything in the first place. I shook my head.

"Just forget it"

"No tell me"

I got fed up with his attitude. I walked up closer to him and glared.

"Fine I'll tell you. You hold onto all this anger and I know because I see it in your eyes. It sits there and bubbles to the surface and don't tell me it doesn't. You can't change what happened you need to accept it and let it go. I know its hard but you have to. I live with the pain of it everyday but I'm trying to move past it. Maybe you should try it!" I told him.

Andy rolled his eyes.

"Oh your so forgiving now? You going to forgive Byran too? For oh I don't know nearly killing you?!" He yelled.

"No we have other things than just that. I will never forgive him" I explained.

"But you can with Juliet?!"

"Its been five years Andy!!" I screamed.

"Well go! Go forgive her! Go forgive Byran for all I care! You obviously seem to care so much. Do you even want me? Why don't you go back to him and give me my kids."

My mouth dropped open and I shoved him. He must have sensed my hurt and realized what he said because his gaze softened. But I was still pissed. He held onto so much anger. He couldn't do anything about it, it was in the past it was all said and done. I started towards the room and he followed me.

"Where do you think you're going?" He yelled.

I opened the door and grabbed the blakent and a pillow throwing it at Andy.

"What's this?"

I glared.

"Your bed."

"I ain't sleeping on no couch!"

"Oh well you can sleep wherever you want but you're sure as hell not sleeping with me!" I slammed the door in his face and locked the door leaning next to it.

That's when I started to cry. I couldn't even talk to him without him getting angry about what happened. I understand him wanting to protect me and I appreciated it I did but he needs to learn to forgive. I sniffled and laid into bed.
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*Andy*

I moved uncomfortable on the couch and looked at the clock on the cable box. Three am and right on cue Darius started to cry. I heard Zea get up and pick him up. She shushed him and carried him out and turned on the kitchen light and I heard her start to heat up a bottle. Darius fussed in her arms and she shushed him.

"I know baby I got your bottle heating up it's okay" she said.

I heard the microwave beep and I heard Zea sniffle and test it and then feed Darius.

"What do you think baby? Am I crazy for forgiving Juliet or at least trying?" I heard her ask.

I wanted to say something but I didn't know if she was going to speak again. She probably thought I was passed out. I hadn't moved and usually I slept through Darius's cry. But this couch was uncomfortable to sleep on and I couldn't stop dwelling on our fight. I heard her crying for a good portion of the night and it killed me exspecially because I caused it.

"Andy, your daddy thinks so. Maybe he's right do you think? It was five years ago....so far you're the only one who doesn't judge me and my decisions. I love you Darius please stay this little....what should I do?"

My heart ached but I didn't say anything. I must admit it I was mad. But how can one simply be forgiven for such a crime?
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What do you think,about the choice Zea is making? Do you think she's crazy? Do you think Andy has a right to be pissed?