Mostly Silent... (1D)

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Sidney's view

~•About a month later•~

"Your going to be fine! You have all your stuff and have nothing to worry about." Louis assured handing me my light blue jansports backpack and climbing into the car with the boys right behind me.

"But..." I tried but stopped myself and frowned on the berm of tears.

"Please Sidney, trust me." He sighed turning on the car and looking at me through the head mirror.

Everyone was tired because it was early in the morning and the whole time I've been complaining. I just wanted to stay home with the boys and have a tutor or something. But no they said "I need to make friends with kids my own age." Personally, I think I'm fine, I don't need anyone other than my boys. But I'm force to go to school!

Yeah you would think I'm excited to go to school again- but really I'm not. Because it won't be anything like it used to be. It won't be like when I was little and my parents watched me leave each day, each waving goodbye. Them getting into their cars and driving off to work. It won't be the same and going back to school just makes me want them more. More memories and more of me wanting my parents to hold.

It makes me want to cry and scream for them to be by my side. Wanting them to be there for me and for us to talk like we did at the dinner table, messing around and teasing each other. I just miss it so much it hurts sometimes.

But with my boys now, its not so bad, I have them who love me and care for me. But it's not the same, they will never replace my parents, ever. Because they were my birth parents that I will never forget them. But I love the boys and am so glad to have them.

I was pulled out of my deep thoughts hearing my name being called.

"Sidney, Sidney!" I turned to Niall who was looking at me.

"We're here" he whispered giving me hopeful eyes.

I nodded and climbed out the open door. Louis came out of the drivers side and gave me a big hug.

"Have a great day, love ya" he said into my ear sweetly. We pulled away and I got four more hugs, each telling me they love me and encouraging words. But I couldn't speak, I couldn't make out speech that would show them that I loved them too and that I was hopefully going to be fine. My mouth was glued shut, not even making a smile.

"Bye" they finally called from the car. I waved slightly and watched as they drove off.

Then I turned around and faced my school; the red bricks lined up side by side making the building. The tall slivery pole with a red, white, and blue flag flying in the breeze. Then a number of kids going in through the front door; big navy blue doors that had a cement staircase running up to.

All of it made my heart want to brake. But just adding to the distress, came my nervousness. The sweaty feeling of my hands and jittery feeling of my legs that seemed to shake slightly. I took in a big breath of fresh air and made my way inside the school-the place where I will probably be most of my time now; five days a week, 7 hours a day.

~•~

"How was your first day of school?" Louis asked watching me walk toward him as I excited the school.

"Fine" I shrugged.

"Fine?" He asked pulling off my backpack and setting it in the back seat. I nodded climbing in the front seat. "Did you make any friends?"

"A few, sure" I nodded again.

"We'll that's good!" He chirped starting the car and driving down the road.