The Unholy Trinity II

Chapter Four

As soon as she cracked her eyes open on Monday morning, Fallon did what she always did. She reached for Lucian’s journal. Having spent most of yesterday reading it, she’d gotten up to February. If she wasn’t careful, that plan of pacing herself was going to go to pieces. Though she knew it, she couldn’t help herself. Being able to read his words and know they’d been written by his hand made her feel closer to him. The longer he was gone, the more important that became. Fallon opened to where she’d left off and settled in for a long read.         

February 7, 2011       

I’m going to kill Griffin. In all the years we’ve been together, I’ve never wanted to hurt him as much as I do right now. I can’t believe he did this to me. Griffin’s never betrayed me like this before and the thing that sucks the most is that he doesn’t even think it’s really a big deal. I don’t get him. I’d never do something like this to him. Sure, we’ve pulled pranks on each other and messed with each other and even pretended to be each other, but this is way beyond all that. How could he stand there and watch me and Fallon doing something so private and not think he was betraying me? This could ruin everything. The thought of him seeing her fills my soul with rage. I already broke all the lights in the north hall when I found out. Now as I’m sitting here writing this, all the lights in the house are going haywire, like my heart. What Griffin did may have cost me Fallon, and if that happens I will kill him twin brother or not. I tried to talk to Fallon about it after she ran out of the north hall. When I explained it she said she wasn’t mad at me, but that part of her soul that lives inside of me knows she can’t let it go yet. She even left school early because of this. When I tried to call her at lunch, she wouldn’t take my call. I know she wouldn’t because I made Corina call her right after I tried and she answered. Corina says she sounded bummed, and I should give her time. This is some kind of fucked up situation though. My brother is my enemy and my ex-girlfriend becomes my ally. Griffin better stay out of my way for a good long time.

February 8, 2011       

Fallon continues to amaze me. After calling me this morning to tell me she can’t come back to school yet, she shows up in second period. Guess she had a fight with her mom who made her go to school. Kind of messed up but good for me. I couldn’t sleep last night thinking I’d be sentenced for a crime my brother committed. Not only does Fallon say everything is okay for me and her, but she basically orders me to forgive Griffin. She says we can’t let the God Squad know there’s any trouble between me and Griffin or they could use it against us. Of course she’s right, but it’s freaking amazing. I figured she’d be begging me to kill Griffin or maybe torture him for a while. Instead, she says she’s going to forgive him and she wants me to forgive him too. I’m not really interested in doing that. It does help a little that she said he told her that he was sorry. Fallon believes him, but I’m not so sure. The one thing she seems to be forgetting is that Griffin and I are both evil. Sometimes the urge to do something evil is too hard to ignore. After what he did yesterday, I’ve only done one evil thing to Griffin, but he deserved it. It was kind of worth it seeing him get upset about it, but I guess I have to let that go. Like it or not, Fallon is right. We can’t be handing ourselves over to Christian Church and his blind sheep.           

February 9, 2011       

I’ve called a truce with Griffin, but only because Fallon asked me to. I’m still not speaking to him yet. I still can’t stand to be around him. I don’t get how Fallon can face him knowing he saw what he did. Every time I see that memory in his mind, it starts the rage boiling in my blood which makes it hard to be around him. I couldn’t even finish my lunch today because I kept wondering how he could do this. When I took off, Fallon came after me. Being around her beats being around Griffin and the others. I’m even willing to go to the stupid school dance with her just to have an excuse to have everyone see her with me. I did have a little fun messing with her today and telling her we don’t need a school dance to dance. Then I got her to dance with me in front of the whole school. They weren’t all watching or anything, but there were a few people hanging around while we were slow dancing in front of the main hall. Girls liked it but some guys thought I was doing it to get laid. No need for that. I already know I could get Fallon like that if I wanted. I want to, but I don’t want it to be like it’s been with other girls. I want it to mean something, and I know it will. Every day we spend together is a day we step closer to our destiny. I’m excited, but I’m not sure I’m ready. I’m not sure I can do what I know I have to. No one is going to understand. I asked Fallon what she’d do if I disappeared and nobody knew where I was. She said she’d go to Hell to find me. When the time is right, I hope she does.