Hidden Feelings

Untitled part; convergence.

What a strange thing to be feeling after all this time. 

It's 2026.

A decade passed inconsequentially for the both of us... and yet we remain unshaken from the very core that brought us together. I say that-I feel that, but I know deep in the abyssal plain of my bones, we have changed. Maybe not the fundamentals, but the very nature of our circadian rhythm beats differently than a decade ago. I wonder if you think about this.

I wonder if when we are together and you look into my eyes, you think about how much we've changed, how much new life we've both seen since the last time we held hands. I wonder if when you hear my laugh, you consider the way my sense of comedy has changed, and your jokes land more than they did a decade ago. I wonder if when we have a moment just between the two of us, you think about what could've been if we would've stuck it out back then and made it here without drifting apart. 

All of this almost to say, yeah things have changed more than I realize on a day-to-day basis. But, I'm realizing, the way they have changed is not the way you'd expect. You'd expect age and different experiences to have unaligned our views. To have made us more individual than we were back then. To rip us further and further apart given our different walks of life, but you would be wrong. All these differences didn't matter when the similarities in character were stronger than we knew. This time, this distance, this decade of unforeseen character development has led us to being more similar than we were when we were kids. From a juvenile, pre puberty headspace to the minds of mature developing young adults, our consciousness' have converged. 

I'm not standing on the rooftop shouting that it's love or that we were destined to cross paths periodically, but it's a pleasure to get to see your smile in my peripheral again old friend.