Our Rebellion M.E

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I woke up like 30 minutes ago, and I was currently on Twitter.

Last night when we got back to the Hotel Matt was on his phone non-stop, so I just showered and went straight to bed. Even though he does this all the time, I'm kinda worried. He doesn't talk or hang out with me much anymore, and no I don't think he's cheating, I just think he doesn't like me.

I kept scrolling on Twitter until I saw something I never thought I would ever see. It was a pic of Matt and a blonde haired girl kissing. The caption was...

@JenniferSmalls- @MatthewEspinosa Miss you bby boy❤️😔

I calmly put my phone down and walked out of the room and to the elevator. When I was waiting for the doors to open I began crying. I love Matt, with everything I have, I just can't believe he did this. I spent 14 years strung up on this kid and when I'm finally happy, he breaks me.

The sound of the doors opening catches my attention. I hear laughing and when the doors open all the way, the guys walk out.

"Hey- whats wrong Spenc?" Hayes says hugging me.

I break down right there... I cry so hard I lose my voice, and everyone just watches. I feel multiple arms wrap around me and I lean into someone.

"I'm worried Spencer tell me whats wrong right now." Cameron says leaning back and everyone else backs away. I look around and see my friends, and a bullshit dispenser sitting against the wall with his head in his hands (Matt).

I get up and walk into the elevator and the doors shut. I wipe my face off and press the first floor button.

The doors open and I walk to the pool area which leads to the patio. There were kids and parents playing in the pool, but no body outside. I step onto the patio and sit down on the lounge chair.

Was I not enough?
Did I mistreat him?
What did I do to make him hurt me like this?
Am I pretty enough, skinny enough, good enough for him?

All these questions cascaded through my head as I looked up at the sky. The sun was soo bright and the clouds moved around freely.

*2 Hours Later*

I decide to go inside. I walk through the pool room and to the lobby. I reach the elevator and I see Mahogany,Cam,Nash,Hayes,Gilinsky,Sammy, and Matt walking through the front doors.

I franticly press the button and the doors open. I walk in and turn around to press the 5th floor button when Cam points at me and runs over here.

The doors were almost shut, but he stuck his hand in-between them. I sighed as they all walked in.

"Its either you tell us whats wrong or I won't let you have your phone back" Mahogany says puling my phone from her pocket.

I just stare at the ground as tears brim my eyes.

"I-" I began, but my throat restrained me from making noises. Tears spill down my cheeks and I look up. Matt looks dead, Hayes is crying, Nash, Mahogany,
Cam, and Gilinsky look pissed and here I am.

I walk to Matt and he looks down at me. "Spencer I'm so sor-" I cut him off with a punch to the face and the doors open. I run down the hallway and open my door. I walk to the bed and lay down balling my eyes out. I hear a soft knock at the door and a caring voice says "I know that you probably want alone time, so I'll just give you your phone and hang with the boys, unless you want to talk... But just know that I'm here, and just text me if you need anything okay?" Mahogany says. The door opens and I feel a dip in the bed. She rubs my back and hands me my phone.

"Thanks" I squeak out. "No problem bbg. Just text if you need anything. Please don't do anything you'll regret." She gives me a hug and walks away. I hear the door shut and I sigh.

I turn on my phone to see 3 miss calls, 7 texts, and 4 voicemails all from Matt. Does he really think I would talk to him right now. He completely broke me and he thinks I'm gonna talk to him like I actually care? I knew he was dumb, but that's ridiculous.

I unlock my phone and call my mom.

"Hello?" She answered.
"Hey mom, can I come home. Matt cheated and I won't be able to face him anytime soon." I say. My voice is beginning to come back, but Its still noticeably horse.
"Yeah sweety. I'm not going to be home until next week, so when I get home I'll buy, and send you plane tickets home. Just hang in until then, and I'll talk to Bart. I love you honey"
"Love you too mom" and I hung up.

There was a knock at the door and I hear it open. I look up and see Matt. He has a bruise on his cheek that goes up to his eye, and a big cut on his cheekbone. He looks like he's been crying...

"Look I told everyone what I did. Then Shawn, Sammy, Jack G, Cam, and Nash beat me up. And no, I'm not going to make up some lie for an excuse, but you need to hear what I have to say. I started talking to Jennifer before we got together, and that picture was also from before me and you got together. I told her to stop talking to me when we started dating, but she didn't listen. She kept sending me text,calls,dms, anything! I got annoyed so I told her to meey me at the mall yesterday. When I got there I told her that I had a girlfriend and that I wasn't interested in her at all, but once again she didn't listen. The today she posted that tweet. I promise that we never did anything while I was with you, i love and respect you too much to do that. You mean the absolute world to me, and I can't live without you. Seeing you cry and broken like that tore me to pieces because I knew it was my fault. If you hate me, or want to break up with me, go ahead. I did this to myself, and most of all I hurt my baby. I truly love you Spencer, whether you believe it or not" By now he had tears streaming down his face, and so did I.

I know he's not lying because when he lies he stutters and pauses in-between his sentence.

He sniffed and slid down the wall.

"I'm so sorry" was all he said. He repeated this about 20 times and I knew that I shouldn't be mad at him. He never actually cheated on me.

I walk over to him and sit in front of him. He looks up and slightly smiles.

"I'm honestly not mad at you. You never cheated, so theres no worries. I love you and I'm sorry for punching you. You mean the world to me too, and If I lost you, my everything would be taken away. I'm not breaking up with you." I say giving him a hug. He laughs and says "I can't say you don't punch hard. Thats what the bruise and cut is from. But If I were you and this happened to me, I would've beat the shit outta me" he says leaning back.

I giggle and stand up helping him up too.

"I'm gonna go to bed, wanna join?" I ask picking put pajamas.

"Sure, but I'm gonna go change, but if I don't come back, one of the boys ate me" He replied walking out of the room. I shuffle into my pajamas and lay down.

A few minutes late Matt walks in and says, "I survived, they weren't hungry!" He gets in bed with me and I snuggle into his chest. Slowly I drift away into a peaceful sleep.

A/N

Btw 'Jennifer', and the 'JenniferSmalls' Twitter account were both made up. Its not based on anyone. I hope you enjoyed this Chapter!💕✌🏽️