"Rose, I need you come help me in maths, I'm screwed I'll wait for u at my place.
Ur lovely Jess :P"
I pressed the send button. Exams are coming and I really need to study this weekend. Last night I managed I would give my mind a break for all the crap that happened later. In fact I couldn't find an answer to a single question.
My cell phone buzzed in my lap. It was a text from Rose telling me she would arrive at my place in two hours.
My mind drifted to Jace, I haven't talked to him since the party which was two days ago. I missed him. I really think I like Jace, he's just sweet all the time and it's not hard to fall for him.
Still I don't know him well yet, we haven't had a proper talk with each other. We were either talking about the project or about school and our classmates, he had never talked to me about himself.
What if he won't talk to me after finishing the project? What if he don't like me even as a friend? I frowned at the idea and couldn't help feeling quite sad.
Why am I thinking too much lately? I need to concentrate, to have a peace of mind, to have my boring life back, to chi..
"Jessy?" My mom's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I didn't hear her opening the door.
"Oh sorry mum! I was just...thinking." I sighed out of frustration.
"Yeah I figured that out" Mum said sarcastically. She walked towards my bed and sat quietly beside me. She put her arm around my shoulder. I hugged her resting my head on her chest and closed my eyes.
I miss my mum's hug, it always succeeds in making me feel better.
Just the warmness of the hug made me smile slightly. Mum didn't try to break that comfortable silence and just patted me on my back gently.
My head was so full of thoughts and this gesture seemed to empty my head slowly.
"What's happening with you, sweetie?" Mom said smoothingly with much care in her voice.
"Nothing really, just some issues." I said in a muffled voice because of the hug.
Mum broke the hug slowly and faced me instead.
"You know you can tell me anything, right?" She looked into my eyes with so much care that made me feel quite guilty.
" Some nonsense has happened to me lately and made me think too much about it. Saying it aloud would make it more real and worse. I really want to forget about it and to stop thinking about it , I'm sorry." I said slowly."
My mum didn't seem upset, I knew she would understand.
"It's okay." She said smiling.
"Ah, I forgot what I came to tell you. I was tidying the living downstairs and I found this, I suppose you'd like to see it."
She handed me an album of photos. I took it and opened it excited.
It was me probably five years old with my mom and dad. Dad was holding me on his shoulder, I was hugging his neck so tightly that I was probably choking him. He was putting one arm on my mum's shoulder lovingly. All of us were grinning widely. We seem happy, like a perfect little family. I'm sure there was a wide smile on my face now. I stared at dad in the photo and passed my thumb over his face. I miss him. I really miss him. I miss his hug, his laugh that would cheer me up whenever I came frustrated from school. I looked through the rest of photos. They brough many memories to me that it made my eyes full of tears.
My father died two years ago in a car accident. It was the worst part of my life. It was like a part of my heart died with him. I was my daddy's girl, I used to be so close to him. I trusted him more than anyone in the world. The grief of losing him came rushing back in my blood.
My mum was watching me with so much care and sadness in her eyes, I know it was hard for her like it was hard for me. She always told me their love story and how did they met in high shool and loved each other since then.
"Oh, sweetie." My mum's voice snapped me out and I didn't realise my tears were falling freely on my cheeks.
"I-I miss him mum." I said my voice breaking. I hugged her tightly. "I really do miss him, Why did this happen to him, why him?" I was crying more intensely now.
"Shhh sweetie, I know it's hard, but it's destiny, this had to happen."
My mom was crying as well. "I'm sorry I brough these to you, it was so stupid of me." Mom said blaming herself.
"No no, of course not, it's just me. Thank you for bringing those photos to me. They are my memories and my happiest moments, I feel much better now really, thanks mom." I said and then I kissed her gently on her cheek.
Mom smiled looking at me lovingly.
"Ah I forgot, Rose is coming over in an hour and half or something." I told her.
"Okay, that's pretty fine. if you need anything don't hesitate to tell me sweetie." Mom said walking towards the door.
"Okay mom of course, love you."
"Love you more." She smiled then shut the door behind her.
I lied on my bed and closed my eyes. This talk has really comforted me. I looked over the photos one more time but this time it made me feel happy.
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"Yaaay this is the last problem, finally."
I said grinning widely.
Rose and I had been studying maths for over than three hours that I really started to have a headache.
"Yeah, you should thank me you know." Rose said sticking her tongue out at me.
I hit her playfully. "Yeah of course my sweetest loveliest bestest best friend." I said teasingly and Rose grimaced.
"This is really cheesy, Jess." she said disapprovingly but she couldn't help smiling.
Her cellphone buzzed beside us and she checked it quickly. It was a text I guess. I swear there was a glint in her eyes for one second but enough for me to notice it. She typed something smiling slightly to the screen. After she finished, she put her cellphone back on the desk and looked back at me. She noticed the suspicious smirk on my face. I raised one eyebrow.
"Hmmn what was that about, little Rose?"
"w-what?" She stutttered and I almost laughed.
I snorted laughing at her. "Was it from your boyfriend?"
"What? Nah, I don't have a boyfriend, silly I would've told you." She said rolling her eyes.
"Rose, I know you, okay? what was that all about then?
"It's from Zac." She said ebarrassed.
"And who's Zac?" I sais in an amused tone.
"We have English class together, that's it."
She said meetng my eyes trying to put much confidence in her voice as she could.
We stared at each other's eyes for ten seconds. Her eyes hesitated a bit and I caught it. I smirked widely and she sighed blushing slightly.
"Ohhkaay he asked me out to go on a date with him. but there's nothing serious yet. I planned on telling you if it went out well." She said with a guilty voice. I really love her.
"Rose I'm not mad at you." She sighed relieved. "So does little Rose like somebody?" I said amused again.
"Yeah, I guess. he's really sweet and caring you know." She said grinning widely.
I grinned back at her.
"So I guess we should choose a nice hot outfit for you then." I winked at her.
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A/N Yeah no cliffhangers this time, tell me your opinion, love you.x
