The second to last period of the last day of the first week. Sophomore year. Painstakingly enough, I can only think about Mila. Still. I honestly d
Period 6, last period. on't think I would hurt too badly if I lost Aug. We barely talk now anyways. Its like we are easing out of our relationship? I would be sad, I know that, because I miss how happy we used to be, but that's not us anymore. It's gone. I want Mila now more than I want him which is awful but true. I wish she wasn't so in love with Madison because then maybe I could have her. I want her more than anything and I've never felt that way before, especially not for a girl. I'm constantly confused by her because she says she wants me but I know she loves Madison. I don't know if I should keep my hopes up or not. She just texted me saying she loves me and my heart sped up so much. I know that she cares. She wouldn't lie to me about that. I trust her with everything. But the question is will she ever love me more than she loves Madison? I don't even want to think about that because I'm afraid. I hope that she will. I'm so selfish. I should want whatever is best for her happiness but here I am wishing for her girlfriend to treat her like shit so she'll leave and I'll have a chance. Pathetic right?
Mila has this new thing about my mouth, she keeps telling me how hot it is and I adore it. She thinks she loves me more than I love her but I don't think it's true because I honestly think I'd leave Aug for her which makes me feel guilty. I've thought about breaking up with him anyways. We aren't the same. Which is sad as hell.. The problem is I'd probably still get jealous over his next girl, and wonder if he loves her more than he loved me or thinks her body is better, etc.
I'm a fucking mess.
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Sophomore Year
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