I Am Sandra.

Chapter Three

You know when you feel like you cant talk, you can talk its just no one gives a shit what youre saying.

I've gotten over Noah. I dont need that in my life. If he wants to just not believe me and talk behind my back thats his choice. I regret every feeling i ever had towards him. It was all a waste of time. But all that happened about 6 months ago. I now know what happened, my "best friend" at least thats what she was suppoesed to be told him all those lies. Her name is Mary. She told him every lie she could possibly make up to get him to hate me.6 months later he still tries to talk to me and get back together, but i honestly have hatred towards him. HE NEVER TRUSTED ME.

Honestly it's so hard when people ask me for help but I am not able too, I am not as strong as they may assume. I am weak.

I am happy to say as weak as I may be I am better.

I don't know what happened that changed all this but something did.

I think I need to open up about my problems more.

I am called beautiful everyday.

I will never ever believe that.

I am called smart.

I will never think that.

I am called strong.

I am weak.

I am called a leader.

I am nothing.

I feel like I have been on this earth for no use whatsoever. I haven't really done anything to change anyone. I am just another person.

I hate the word goodbye. For me goodbye means to leave for a long period of time. I have a fear of losing people in my life.

I am happy I never took the exit.