SoCalOC (Cashby)

He's gone, and I'm leaving too.

Alan's gone. He's really gone. It's all my fault. I should have kept an eye on him. I should of been there for him.
Me and Anthony were sat in his living room, I could here his wife whispering something in his ear. Something about Alan.
"Anthony?" I questioned, he raised his head and looked at me,
"What's up mate?" He replied,
"I don't have to go home now do I?" I could feel the tears pricking at my eyes,
"No of course not, you're family now. Do you want to see where you'll be staying?"
"That would be great! Thank you."
Anthony stood up and started walking towards the back door,
"Me and Crystal thought that you and.... That you'd like the guest house. It's recently been refurbished and redecorated."
He pointed towards the back of the huge garden to a cosy little bungalow.
"It looks amazing Anthony thank you." I said staring at the bungalow in aww,
"It's the least I can do" he said,
"What do you mean?" I questioned,
"Oh nothing... I've gotta go, I'll see you at dinner at 7."
And with that he ran back up to the house, I walked towards the bungalow.
I don't think I can carry on without Alan. He's a soul mate, well was, he was the one I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with.
I got in and had a hot shower, and then I led on the floor in the living room for hours, just thinking, thinking about my life without Alan. And I can't do it. He's gone, and I'm leaving too.
I walked to the liquor cabinet and grabbed a bottle of jack, I started heading for the medicine cabinet in the bathroom, took out a bottle of pills. Now all I need is rope, where would there be one? I looked around the living room. And spotted one, holding the curtain back.
I set up the rope,
Drank half the jack,
And used to rest to take the pills,
I stood on the stool,
And wrapped the noose around my neck,
"I love you Alan..."

Sorry it's late guys, I hope it was worth the wait though.
Love Chantelle. X