Twilight by Evangelise Cullen

The obsession begins

I hate this, I feel all slushy and bloated from the amount of blood I have drank. Stupid telepathy making me be able to feel the same as Edward over this stupid girl. Her blood does not even smell that amazing to me alone, but with Edwards memory it smells... tasty. It makes me just as thirsty as him, makes me want her blood just as much as he does, except as soon as he stops thinking about it, I don’t care about it again.

“you need to eat Eva” Esme told me putting a stack of pancakes in front of me. I covered my mouth as my stomach churned and I felt sick. With the other hand I grabbed my stomach as I got to my feet and ran out of the room, into Carlisle’s office to get away from the smell.
“princess” he smiled at me as I laid on the floor.

“nothing personal Esme” I shouted down and then closed my eyes. She will understand, I have had to feed on this much blood before and it makes me more vampire than whatever else I am, and food as disgusting to me as it is to them.

“what happened?” he asked joining me on the floor as I sat up.

“I have so much blood in me I feel all slushy and bloated, then the idea of pancakes was just disgusting, like eating mud or something” I told him.

‘arh, you have turned more vampire again’ he mused inside his head and I nodded.

“it is a necessary evil that you must keep topped up too, although I have faith that you would not fail, just like Edward” he told me stroking my hair as I rested my head on his shoulder.

“maybe Edward and I should have stayed away. The girl would be safer without us both after her blood... even if that is him passing it to me” I muttered.

“he thinks that too, but he says he cannot leave, not anymore” he breathed into my hair and I nodded.

“did he tell you the reason” I asked.

“no. I did tell him that we would all be happy to move, but he just said he couldn’t leave” he shrugged.

‘I am going to guess that you know that reason Eva’ he thought and I nodded. Edward was somehow becoming more connected to this girl than just desire for her blood.

“I think I might go to the river, Edward is there watching the sunrise” I smiled after searching for Edward. Carlisle let go of me so I could stand up and walk out of his office.

Edward has decided to give himself one last day, one last attempt at being around her so no one has to leave. I sat next to him and he wrapped an arm around me as I put my head on his shoulder.

“at least it was possible for you to have had that life once” I sighed as he thought about growing up, marriage, kids, old age, death, humanity.

“Eva I didn’t...” he began but I put my index finger on his lips to stop him from talking. He was now thinking about how inconsiderate he just was thinking about all of that when I know no different. I say I am like Alice as I cannot remember anytime other than this, but the difference is Alice was human before she was a vampire... I have always been this.

“it doesn’t matter” I shrugged and dropped my hand.

“if things don’t work out here, we will use the couple of years break away from everyone to find out more about you” he offered.

“I don’t care anymore Edward... I have spent over three hundred years trying to figure this all out, I just don’t care anymore” I closed my eyes and he kissed the top of my head.

“one day you will find out, you cannot stay a mystery forever” he smiled at me.

“truthfully...” I began.