Insanity: Sacred Truth

Chapter 11

**** Recap of Chapter 2 ****

Whispers and beeping surrounded me but I tried to block them out. My head felt like it was going to burst into pieces. My body was aching in the worse of ways and my ears felt like they were going to fall off any minute. My throat felt like I swallowed flames. Trying to open my eyes hurt more than anything.

After my attempt, I felt hands touching my arms and my face. Such feelings alarmed me, causing me to panic. My heart began to race causing the beeping to appear louder and faster. Frantic movement can be heard around me. I wanted to yell for help, to get me out of this state of unawareness.

A few moments later, I was able to peak my eyes open. I saw doctors and nurses everywhere. Why was I in a hospital? Was it really my dreams tormenting me?

Or was it reality...

I saw my parents being escorted out of the room. My mother's cries and pleas echoed throughout the room making me even more fearful of why I was here.

I felt so damaged and weak. My body was going numb all entirely.

"We have to sedate her now. She might go into shock if we don't hurry!"

Flames seemed to attack my skin. Why couldn't the numbness last? Why did I have to feel this way? What did I ever do to deserve such punishment?

I felt a pinch on my arm. Dull aches coated my skin as my body began to go back into its relaxed state. A tear slipped out of my one eye until it was forced to close. My body shuddered due to the aftershocks until it went completely still.

I felt myself drift off into a deep sleep. I wish that I wouldn't wake up. I wish I would be able to become acquainted with death so that I would no longer be in the world of the unknown.

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Such an escape never came to me. I woke up to the sound of beeping next to me, knowing that those sounds mocked the beating of my living heart. I peaked my eyes open and stared at the light above me. For once I felt at peace being alone. Left to my thoughts, to my body, to my emotions. Such things left me with a small smile plastered on my face. 

"You know, you shouldn't be smiling after what you have done." The blood in my body ran cold. I looked to my right to see Venus sitting in the chair next to the bed. I shook my head at her.

I didn't understand. I wanted to understand. 

"How can you just sit? You just sit and do nothing. How could you live with what you have done to your own mother?" What was she talking about? What did I do to my mother? Did I cause her stress due to the current situation? It isn't like I intended to do so...

"Venus, what are you talking about? If you are talking about stress, then that is inevitable..."

"Stress?!? You are truly blinded. Not everything is as it appears to you. Once upon a time, a child by the name of Samantha was adopted by a family. Why was she adopted you may ask? Well, that is where it comes to this. All of this." Venus had to be lying. There was no way I was adopted. I would've been told. I wouldn't have been lied to. My family would not have lied to me.

"She channeled us. She cherished us. She kept us close. We were all the dearest of friends. Then the rape happened. You were born. She wanted you to be one of us but no. You alerted those around. You made her mad. You had her taken away. You brought on her days, months, years of torture. You are the reason she killed herself."

I was frozen. No words to be spoken.

I heard voices outside my hospital room door. I turned towards the door trying to process what was spoken to me. It didn't make any sense. It could never make any sense. I tried to make out the voices but couldn't. I turned back and saw that the chair was now empty. Why wouldn't it ever make sense to me?

The doctor entered the room.

"Well it's nice to see you are finally awake Samantha. I'm Dr. Shaw. You have been under my care for the past few weeks since the ambulance brought you hear after you were found by one of your neighbors. You have some serious injuries to your body. We tried to contact your aunt Monroe to explain these injuries but her phone was not working and no one was home. I would like to ask some questions if you don't mind." I nodded my head for him to go ahead and ask.

"Have you ever been involved in self harm?" I shook my head no. "Have you ever experienced physical, emotional, or verbal abuse?" I shook my head no. "Are there any serious issues going on with you Samantha?" Once again, I shook my head no. The doctor looked frustrated but he smiled anyway.

Dr. Shaw sat down on the chair next to me and stared at me. I felt as though I was being studied, analyzed, judged. Who was he to do such things? What made him do such things?

"I know you aren't telling me the truth. You wouldn't be here if it wasn't for the truth. Your parents managed to gain your records from the therapist you were seeing. Now Samantha, can you tell me about them."

A breath escaped me. A single breath. 

"You act as if it is so easy. You act as if it is suppose to make it better. You act as if.... you act as if it isn't a part of me. Latched onto me. Never letting go. You all don't understand. I don't even understand."

"Well help us to do so. We can help you if you let us. If you act accordingly, you could get help. So when did they start?" He gathered up his notepad and pen and stared me down.

"It was a long time ago. Leave it at that."

"Now Samantha..."

"Please. Just leave."

He sighed and exited the room.

I was left to my thoughts, my body, and my emotions once again. I had time to think. But it is thinking that I feared the most. What did Venus mean? She had to have the wrong person. She had to.