Insanity: Sacred Truth

Chapter 13

As I opened my eyes, I was in an unfamiliar room. The once pale gray walls was now striped walls. Green and white. So bright. There was a couch in the corner of the room and there was a big window that let in the sunlight from outside. There was baskets of flowers littering the floor of this room. Why was I here? Was this real?

I turned as I heard the creaking of the door. In walked the nurse and my aunt Monroe. Well, I'm not sure about the aunt part anymore. Nothing is real anymore. I just want the truth. Even if it kills me on the inside.

"It is great to see you awake Samantha. You gave us a great amount of scares while you were asleep. We performed some procedures on your brain and collected data while you were out. You'll feel tired for the next couples of days due to the treatment but it is normal. You'll be moved to a health center in Alaska in a couple of days where you would be monitored and studied in order to help you get better." 

Studied. As if I am an unknown creature walking the Earth. Studied. How disgusting. The fact that I am being sent to yet another area where I am to be exploited as if I am an abomination makes me want to throw up. The sickness settled at the back of my throat, leaving an awful taste in my mouth.

After checking my vitals, the nurse exited the room. My 'aunt' Monroe sat down in the chair and looked at me.

"So, how are you feeling Samantha? Are you comfortable? Is there anything you need?" Why did she have to lie? What was the true purpose of this facade she put on?

"You act like you care. Yet you are not even my real family."

The look on her face was blank. She shifted her eyes around the room before she got close to me.

"Who did you hear that from Samantha? Tell me and I mean it." How dare she? It isn't like any of them was ever going to tell me. They were going to let me suffer in silence. Not even truly knowing who I am.

"Just tell me the truth... Please, I need the truth. You owe me that much." I turned away from her. It was easier that way.

"That doesn't matter right now alright. I want the truth." I felt the tears leak down my face before I could stop them.

"You were never officially adopted alright? You were brought to your parents by the Creekwood Facility. Your parents have always been caretakers, would make sure that they helped out in order to... lessen their pain of never being able to conceive. Such a burden but it was better that way," She got up and went to look out the window as I turned to face her again, "You know, you were such a pretty baby yet there was something always off about you but it never seemed to click. We were never given any information of who your real parents are and that is that."

I felt crushed. Why did it have to be true? Just why? When did life become so complex? It wasn't right. It was never right for me.

The room around me grew dark as it grew colder. I knew what this meant. It was happening yet again. It always happened like this. I got up from the bed and walked over to someone I viewed as family for a while. I touched her shoulder but she was frozen solid, eyes blank as they stared out of the window. 

I walked out of the room and into the hallway. I walked past the frozen bodies. The more I drew to the exit, the colder it got. But, I didn't let it bother me. I tried to control my breathing, I needed to let this happen. It was the only way.

As I exited the hospital, I was in the Victorian home once more. I took a deep breath  as I walked up the stairs slowly. My heart was racing in my chest but I chose to ignore it. It is the only living thing that was true to me anymore. I entered the room from down the hall and saw Venus there sitting on the bed. 

"It is all your fault. You ruined everything for us. You are useless as you took her away from us. You killed her."

Venus rose up and hugged me. My body felt as though it was on fire. My breathing was caught in my chest and I felt myself losing it slowly. I felt as though my insides were being ripped apart. Absolute torture. But... I deserved it all. I welcomed it all. It offered me relief. The relief to understanding. The pain of understanding. 

I welcomed it with a smile. Even if it drove me to my death.