Let Me Love You.

Chapter 19 ~ The New Girl xx & The Goodbye

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*THE NEXT MORNING*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

JORDI'S P.O.V.

I slowly start to peel my eyes open letting the bright light slowly seep through the cracks. When I get my eyes fully open I have a mini heart attack realising that my alarm didn't go off and I have school today. I rolled over really fast to face my clock and I noticed that the sheets next to me were messy but empty at the moment I noticed that I still had half an hour to get ready for school instead of an hour. I jumped up out of my bed and rolled my ankle. 'Ow Fuck' I shouted up as I fell to the ground. I stayed on the ground for a couple of minutes but that's when I remember and as soon as I remembered a part of me died inside and in that moment I shattered, I started crying as the tears filled my eyes and made my vision blurry I remembered all the good times and all the bad times. I remembered her bright white smile, I remembered dark blue eyes, I remembered her wavy shoulder length dirty Blonde hair, her laugh that was funnier than the joke, her crazy zigzag walking that made her look like she was drunk, I remembered all the funny little details about her like the fact she used to wear a pink fingerless glove when I first met her, or the fact that she always wore chap stick but never make-up, I remembered how she tried to get me to stop wearing make-up when I was getting called ugly or the fact that she would always make her parents take us to McDonald's at late hours of the night because she was craving ice-cream, I remembered the embarrassing singing in public and the fact that spending those little bits of times with her or seeing her smile in the morning made my day a whole lot better. But most of all I remember the fact that I promised to protect her and when I was at my weakest she was taken away from me in an instant. I remember my best friend, my sister, the person who could make me happy, Ebonnie she was DEAD!!! There is no turning back the time now she is gone forever I can never get her back but I will always have her in my heart. Getting up of the ground shot a massive wave of pain through my leg and left me limping towards my en-suite. I turned the shower on and had a quick shower washing my hair and body in silence since it is cold I am not going to bother with shaving my legs. When I was finished in the shower I hoped out of the shower and wrapped my towel around me. I walked over to my wardrobe still sobing a bit and grabbed my batman leggings, a white sweater with diamontes on the shoulders and my boots that looked like Reece Mastin's I threw my clothes on and walked over to my dance mirror dragging a chair over with me I still have ten minutes left to get ready so I put a light layer of foundation on and some water proff eye liner and mascara not wanting to over do it. I out my hair up into a messy bun and just looked at myself in the mirror judging all the bad things about me like the fact that I am probably getting on the aneraxic side from losing weight from being called fat so much, I looked at how ugly I am and the fact that I have a scare down my left cheeck slightly visible from growing up with an abusive sister that had mental issues. I looked at how fragile I have let myself got instead of being the strong confident one that everyone can rely on. I have become vunarable to everyone's shit and I am trying to overcome my past and move on. I got up of my chair and put it back where I got it from I grabbed my phone and school bag and walked down the staris whiping my tears away so no-one would know I was crying. Saritha, Mitch and Christian were talking in the lounge room so I walked into the kitchen and grabbed an apple once I grabbed my apple I took a large bite from it and walked to the frontdoor. 'Im leaving now' I yelled out as I opened the door. I felt a light tap on my back and I turned around to see Saritha standing behind me with Mitch & Christian behind her.

'Are you ok?' Saritha asked me with a sincere look on her face. I tried not break and not let the tears that had formed in my eyes from slipping out of them. She imidiately wrapped her arms around my waist pulling me into her for a hug I wrapped my arms around her neck sitting my head onto of my left elbow.

'She's gone Saritha and I cant help her anymore' I said to her letting the tears fall slowly one by one.

'Shh its ok I know' She cooed into my ear. I pulled away from the hug and whipped the tears away.