Distant ; Josh Dun

THREE

We get to a restaurant and while waiting for our food Rebekah asked Tyler about a million questions.

I just decide to kind of tune them out, I look over at Josh and start thinking back to when I was under the stage with him. There was a moment when I first came under that I noticed a distant look in his eyes, and then he looked at me almost like he was trying to see through me. I don't know, he just seemed so closed off. I guess, if that's what is was, I can relate.

I'd keep letting people in, and they'd hurt me over and over again, so I closed them out. I closed everyone out. Sure, I have friends, but they don't even know much about me.

"What ya thinking about?" Josh asks me.

"Hmm? Oh, nothing." I smile.

The waiter brings us our food and we talk and eat and I glance at Josh occasionally and he glances at me.

There's a moment where Josh looks at me at the same time I look at him and time seems to just freeze. A painful wave of sadness washes over me, and I feel like I'm drowning.

It's like when people fall in love in movies, and there's electricity between them. But in this case, we seemed to share a sort of sadness.

I start having a hard time breathing, then that long moment ends and Josh gives me a worried look as Tyler says "You look pale."

My vision gets fuzzy, black spots emerge and I try to rub my eyes, but I feel too weak to lift my hands. Then, I pass out.

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Still black, but I can hear voices. Are they in my head or are they real people? I think it's Josh Dun and Tyler Joseph.

"No, it was weird. Like right before she blacked out we had like this moment of- I don't k ow what it was. It made me feel slightly depressed, but it was like, ugh, I just can't explain it." Josh says.

"We can pay for the hospital bill, but you can't just skip the next couple concerts for this girl you just met!" Tyler says.

Are they talking about me? I mean, it sounds like it, but they just couldn't be. I opened my eyes to see that I'm in a hospital room. Tyler and Josh are standing next to the door.

"I'm not saying I'm going to ditch, I'm just asking if we can stay till she's awake." Josh says, getting angry.

"Then I guess we can leave now." Tyler says, earning a confused look from Josh. Tyler nods his head toward me.

"You're awake." Josh states.

"No, I'm still asleep." I say, being the sarcastic ass I am.

A lady that clearly works at the hospital enters the room, telling Josh and Tyler to leave.

"Hello, I'm May, alright so yesterday how much water did you drink?" The woman, May, asks.

"Yesterday?" I ask.

"Yes, you slept quite a bit." She laughs.

"Oh," I say. "Like a lot, but come to think of it, I didn't eat anything until we went to get dinner and I ate a little of that before I passed out."

"Ah, yeah, and I take it you didn't eat much the day before?" She asks, I nod a 'yes'. "Alright, well I'll bring you something to eat and you'll be fine. Just don't let it happen again, your body needs food to work properly."

I nod, she leaves and returns with some food that I eat quickly. Josh and Tyler return along with Rebekah. She hugs me and then her and Tyler leave, but Josh stays.

"So, Brooklyn, how do you feel?" Josh asks, scratching the back of his neck nervously.

"Better," I reply, shrugging. I know we're both thinking about his talk with Tyler.

"That's good," he says, smiling a little, then he lets out a sigh. "So, did you feel anything, uh, between us when we were at dinner?"

"I-I did. Josh, are you a closed off, distant person?" I ask.

"Well, yeah, the only person I've really opened up to is Tyler." He replies, he opens his mouth to add something, but decides against it.

"I kind of caught that, but there was something else and I just don't know what it..." I trail off, "Josh, are you okay?"

"Was it like a bad feeling?" He asks me.

"Uh, yeah kind of." I reply, looking down.

There's silence in the room. I feel so tense, and even more when Josh's hand cups my cheek and he stares into my eyes. He looks like he's searching my expression, so I remain expressionless not knowing what to do.

Is he going to kiss me? Do I want him to kiss me? I just met him. Do I like him? No, I just met him. He's famous anyway, too much drama there. Does he do this with some lucky girl at everyone of his shows. No, he seems so sweet. Maybe I just want him to be sweet. This is all so confusing. Josh, what is... this? Do we have something?

I try to shake all the questions out of my head so I focus on Josh. Josh that is currently cupping my face like they do in movies- right before they kiss.

"Josh we gotta-" Tyler's eyes widen at the sight in front of him. "go..." he finishes.

"Right, bye Brooklyn." He says, giving me a quick hug. He seems hurt.

"Bye Josh, bye Tyler." I say, with ease, maybe because I've said goodbye so many times.

No, I've learned that it's not the goodbyes that hurt, but the memories that come afterward.