A Pain Never Forgotten (NCIS) - Part Two

Chapter Four

She kept to her promise and called them all when she landed, even though she was dreading it. She knew it was now evening in America so they would all be at home, she decided to call McGee first.

"Hi"

"Kelly! How are you? I can't believe you have done this?"

"What I needed to go back to work it's been over two months"

"I know, I guess I had just forgotten about your old job and everything that had happened when you first got here, you were just one of us now"

"McGee I love you, I'll be coming back to see you"

"What about the other thing?"

"A false alarm" She lied "anyway, I have to make my way home and a couple more calls, bye McGee"

"Bye"

Next she decided to try Tony, she wasn't looking forward to the call with her dad.

"Hi, it's only me, just calling to say I landed okay"

"You haven't left because of me have you?"

"Don't flatter yourself, its work. What happened earlier really upset me, I thought you were more decent then that Tony, but I guess it's in the past now"

"Sorry, it just came as a shock"

"I understand, anyways I guess I better go, this will be costing a small fortune and I still have my dad to call" Kelly laughed

"Does he know anything about today?"

"No"

"Okay, sorry again, bye"

Now Gibbs! This is what she was dreading the most.

"Hi Dad, it's me"

She heard him sigh, oh no! "Kelly, I don't know what you think you are doing. You got the money from those men you killed, you don't need to work we both know that!" His voice was getting louder with every sentence "you could have quit your job in England and stayed here! What's happened? Why have you really left? Is something up? Are you getting trouble? You know we could have sorted it!"

"Dad! Dad! Just stop! If people were bothering me I would just sort it myself! It's not that, I just want to come home"

"You are home!” He yelled “Me and your mother brought you up for 8 years in America you were born here, do you forget that?” He was angry.

Kelly was starting to feel upset “Please Dad, don’t say that. Don’t bring mum into this, I’ve never forgotten her. I was the one who saw the pain in her face as she saw me get taken by those foreign men, I saw her in the crash and I saw when they set that car on fire and place the other young girl that they had killed in the car. How could I ever forget that? You could have saved us if you were just at home, but instead you was too busy being a marine that always came first, and mum lost her life because of it!” She screamed.

The pain of his daughter words burned through him he had always felt guilt for Shannon’s death but now he was angry, but he could tell that Kelly was worse he knew he would have to be the one calming the situation down, he had never thought of what Kelly had seen of Shannon before she was taken “I've had years of you not been here thinking you were dead, grieving for both you and your mother and then the unthinkable happens, your not dead you had been kidnapped and you came back to me, parents never get that opportunity and now that you've left me again, all that pain is coming back Kelly"

She held back the tears, she had never thought of that "I'm so sorry dad, this is something I need to do, but I will come back and see you, I have to go, I'll talk later"

A tear fell down her cheek, she never meant to hurt him.

She’d made her way back to her old apartment as she opened the door All her thoughts came rushing back she could see herself holding the gun towards her dads face as he sat there tied to a chair. She watched herself ready to pull the trigger and then changing her mind and killing her 'family', guardians, her captors whatever she should class them as. She put it to the back of her mind and unpacked her chosen suitcases she made the place look like a home again unpacking her clothes, and putting throws that she had packed over her sofas. She picked out some picture frames and looked at the one that used to be on her fireplace, the one where they all looked happy, she put it on her new fireplace so they could look over her, she missed them already.

She grabbed an envelope from her study and decided to write a letter to McGee.

Dear Tim,

I'm so sorry to have left you, I've never had a friend like you. I was always so isolated and alone in my old life.

I love you so much and I'm sure I'll be coming back to America soon.

Inside this envelope you will find my car keys it is still at the airport I paid for two weeks to give you time, I was wondering if you would be able to sort out for the movers to ship it over to England for me, yes that does mean I'm planning to stay here a while. I will email the details.

Thank you so much, love you Kelly x

P.S: the second smaller envelope contains keys as well, it's yours if you want it.

Kelly dropped her car keys in with the letter alongside dropping her old apartment keys inside a second smaller envelope.

McGee had managed to sort the car out and it was with Kelly within three weeks, but he said that he didn't want to take the apartment, he somehow had the idea that Kelly would be coming home and would want to live there again.