When the shadows are seen....

I am a monster

After waking up an hour later,surprising it was only 2:45.i stood drearily it stopped bleeding and I smiled because I thought I was gonna die by bleeding out.i lived.I thanked God,then stared at my image in the mirror,yes I was in fact still hurt but my eye stopped bleeding.i sighed of relief because not knowing what to tell my dad or George.i wasn't blind,just had a major scar near my eye.i can't say I stabbed myself either or I may seem crazy.i did the only thing I could do,I called George.i was surprised he was up,he picked the phone up right away.i told him what happened knowing I could trust him and he said he'll be right there.he seemed worried,but I just shrugged it off,then he appeared at my door. He was quick I'll give him that.he was breathless and when he saw my eye,I can see the worry in his eyes. He was a weirdo but had a soft heart.he rushed to me and asked if I was okay and if I needed to go to the hospital.i shook my head,and I felt him pull me into a hug.i was to frozen in what just happened to be able to do much more then put a single arm around his neck.i heard the scaredness in his voice as he scolded me about doing such things especially if I don't know who I'm hurting someone who didn't deserve it.about an hour later my dad came home because George told him to hurry home.my dad was shocked to see me with a scar on my left eye.tears rolled down his cheeks as he ran to hug me.at last I couldn't take it,I was weak and couldn't take another squeeze.my eyes where shutting and I almost passed out if it weren't due to a fear in my head."what if I died in my sleep?"my eyes shot open as I thought this and started to cry,laugh,and clutch angrily on my dads work suit.all these feelings pouring over me like hot tea at once.i couldn't take it,and screamed into my dads sleeve.tears where rolling down everyone's face,and I was embarrassed that I cried in front of George.he'll never let this down.but I knew he wouldn't tell once I saw him bit his lip,crying himself.i was utterly shocked,and didn't shrug this one off,but didn't mention it at that moment.maybe tomorrow?i felt fine after this none of us could sleep,so dad made himself coffee and George and I got hot chocolate.happy once again but sadly I knew it was gonna end soon.