Soulmates || Shizaya /Yaoi/Boy x Boy

Chapter 8: Unanswered Questions and Nightmares

Soulmates
CHAPTER 8: Some Unanswered Questions, and Nightmares.

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t's a lonely day full of grey skies, dark clouds and silent streets as raindrops fall to the pavement. The whole city smells like fresh Sakura blossoms and fresh cut grass. And even though it’s a weekend there's no children's laughter in the air and there's very few cars moving in the streets. Everywhere, there is nothing but silence. Its so silent that you could hear a pin drop from a mile away. Even in the apartment of Shizuo and Izaya Orihara Heiwajima there is nothing but silence. As Izaya lays awake in bed with Shizuo’s arms wrapped around him in sleep.

Izaya could barely sleep due to nightmares. He keeps on having nightmares about what happened on their wedding day. How Ryuuji had crashed their wedding and almost killed them both. But in his dreams their wedding day took an dark turn for the worst.

Every time, he closes his eyes the vivid images from his dreams are there waiting for him. He tries his best not think about them, to push them to the far back of his mind but they keep coming back.

" Are theses Nightmares ever going away? Will this feeling of sadness ever leave me alone? Is Ryuuji really gone, locked away forever? Or is he waiting to escape to try to kill my husband again just to get to me? What do I do if he does escape?" Izaya thought.

When Ryuuji was taken away by the police he had confessed to everything with a smirk and was sent to Prison. And there are so many questions that Izaya asked himself that go unanswered everyday. To many unanswered questions that are similar to the ones that Izaya's friends and family have asked themselves.
Izaya laid his head down on his pillow as he finally drifted away into an uneasy sleep full of sorrow. The nightmares are always there, every time he closes his eyes at night. They never go away until he is woken up from his sleep by his husband, Shizuo.

Every night he wakes up soaked in sweat and hot tear running down his face, every time he wakes up from a dream full of blood and pain. There’s many sleepless nights for when he’s to afraid to fall asleep, so he does whatever he can to stay awake but ends up losing in the end, just like in his nightmare.

(In Izaya's Nightmare)

Izaya wakes up in a room that's completely black and he could only see a small light in the distance. And as he walks got closer to the light he sees him self on his wedding day being shielded by Shizuo as Ryuuji tried to attack him. Shizuo and Ryuuji striking at one another trying to cause as much damage as possible to each other.

Izaya sees everything all the way up till the point where Shizuo was sent crashing into the wall. And just like on that day he rushed over to him and put his head in his lap, only to be pulled away from Shizuo by some invisible force from the darkness. He looks down and sees black chains around his arms and legs. As he reached a hand up to his neck, he could feel a thick leather collar around it with a black chain connected to it.

He pulled at his restraints but they just held on to him tighter and tighter as if someone was trying to tear him apart.  Izaya quickly looked over to Shizuo body and screamed as he saw Ryuuji stabbing  Shizuo over and over again until there was blood everywhere and on his clothes. The whole room is painted in Crimson Blood even Izaya himself. And the air had took on a dry and sweet metallic stench and it only gets stronger as more blood is spilt, to the point that you could taste it as you took a breath. The whole thing was like it was a scene from a horror film.

Izaya can hear Shizuo scream over and over again. And he could smell the stench of stomach acid mixed in with the scent of blood. Finally Ryuuji stopped and put down the dagger and looked Izaya in the eyes. The only thing Izaya could feel at that moment when their eyes met, was fear. Ryuuji’s eyes had changed. Instead of his usual dark brown, his eyes had gone completely black, even the white of his eyes. And there was this look of complete insanity in those and on his face. 

" Your mine, Izaya. I finally have you. Now, lets have some fun. Haha.." Ryuuji laughed as he prowls over to him, like he’s a predator and Izaya is his prey. And when Ryuuji finally reached him he ripped off Izaya’s clothes leaving him completely exposed.

" NO! DON’T TOUCH ME! " Izaya screamed as Ryuuji touched his body and then he thrust 2 fingers in to Izaya's entrance then a third.

" NO! NOW STOP MOVING!!" Ryuuji said as he  held Izaya's hips down to the ground digging his nails into Izaya’s delicate skin.

" STOP!! PLEASE STOP IT HURTS!! STOP TOUCHING ME!! AHHH!!! " Izaya screamed and pleaded as Ryuuji forcefully thrusts into him.

" No!! Why should I stop touching what’s mine?!! You fucking little whore!! You are going to pay for leaving me! Now I'm going to fuck you and your going to like it!! " Ryuuji said as he flipped Izaya over on to his hands and knee. Then started to thrusts deeper and harder into Izaya with every word.

"STOP!! PLEASE! AHHH!!!!" Izaya screamed as his body withered in agony. His back felt like it was set on fire and he could feel a warm liquid trail down his thighs.  The air around them was full of the dry, metallic and musty stench of blood and sex. And there was nothing he could do to save himself. Because the more he struggled the rougher Ryuuji gets and the agony he feels. So all that he could do is scream in his mind as his body is violated over and over again.

" PLEASE STOP!! "

" SOMEONE HELP ME"

“ NO MORE!! HELP!! HELP ME!!"

“PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!”

(Nightmare ends here)

Izaya woke up gasping for a breath. He could feel his whole body shaking and his throat felt sore and dry.  Shizuo telling him that it was only a  nightmare as he held him in his arms. And Shizuo started to rock from side to side calmly until Izaya  stopped shaking. .

Izaya broke down in his loves arms as he cried out all his fears and pain. Shizuo always holds him and try to reassure him after every nightmare to calm him down enough for him to sleep with out a night terror. After Shizuo puts him to sleep he doesn't have the nightmare until the next night.

The nightmares never fails to show its self the next night ,it always keeps coming back. And the images and smells haunt him even when he's awake. The images of his lover being murdered right before his eyes and the scent of his blood.

"Why don’t they just go away? Why do I have to suffer this way?" Izaya asks his self everyday and every night he falls to sleep only to come face to face with the same nightmare that seems to stuck in an endless loop.

Shizuo asks himself the same type of questions over and over again. Every time he hears his husbands screams of pain and despair as he the has same old nightmare again and again. He too wants to scream for the screams tug painfully at his heart. Every night he wakes Izaya up for the nightmare and tries to calm him down until he slips into a dreamless sleep. And he lay awake in bed and hope that Izaya would stay asleep till morning.

A/N: I’m sorry! Don’t hate me for this!
Hopefully I see ya next chapter!
~ Michelle