Don't Forget (Niall Horan)

Chapter 11: Show Me The Reason

Niall's POV:

I finally had my princess. She was still asleep and I just watched her contentedly. "All Around The World" went off as my phone buzzed.  Quickly I grabbed for it. "Hello?" I whispered, having not bothered to check the caller ID.

A very angry Liam responded to me. "Where are you guys? You said you would have Isabell back this morning! You're not going to make the plane!" Admittedly I probably deserved this. That didn't mean I was going to listen to it.

"Hold on Dad." I whispered and untangled myself from Isabell's grip.

"Why are you whispering?"

"Because I don't want to wake Isabell up. Why else? We lost track of time and decided to spend the night."

"You guys got a hotel room? Niall this is you first date with her, my god!"

Okay that probably wasn't the best thing to tell him, but I enjoyed messing with him. "Relax Liam. All we did was sleep. Anyways I'll get her home on the next plane." Liam continued to fuss, but I shut him down. "Alright, yeah. Talk you later."

Liam was right. It's almost 9:30 and our plane leaves at ten. Everyone else was probably at the airport by now. Isabell stirred in the bed. She threw one of her arms across the bed. I smiled because she was looking for me.  Her bracelets had slipped off during the night. Funny, I'm pretty sure this is the first time I've seen her without them. Instead of laying down I just sat next to her. While waiting for her to wake up  I ran my finger up and down her arm.  For only a split second I looked at her wrist but it was enough. Seeing them was like a slap in the face. Thin, pink scars covered her wrist. Theywern't brand new, but they most definetly weren't old. No, they couldn't be real. Isabell couldn't have done this to herself. Desperately praying for them to not be real I picked up her wrist and felt them myself.  By then Isabell had woken up. Tears filled my eyes as I looked at her confused expression. "Why Isabell?"

Isabell's POV:

"Why Isabell?" I had just woken up because Niall yanked on my wrist. The bracelets were missing. Shit! My bracelets were missing! Niall knew. He knew and now he would probably leave me, disgusted and disappointed. As pathetic as it sounds all I could do was cry. He was going to leave me and it was all my fault. "Show me the reason, please Isabell!"  Niall pleaded. Was he about to cry too?

"I can't tell you Niall." He would just tell me the same thing everyone else did. And from him those words would kill me.

"You can tell me anything."  He persited.

"No, it's to horrible." I told him. He wouldn't understand. This is what I had been trying to prevent this whole time. Niall just had a way of making me let my guard down. Stupidity caused me to act like a love-struck little girl and forget everything.

"Nothing could be that horrible." He argued. Until no he hadn't let go of my wrists. Now his hands traveled up to my shoulders so he could hold me in place. "Jus talk to me. I love you. I'm not going anywhere and you know that."

"It's all my fault!" I finally blew.

"What's your fault love?" He pulled me against his chest.

"He's dead because of me!" I sobbed into his t-shirt.  "Drew is dead and it's all my fault!"

"It couldn't have been all you're fault. What happened? You can tell me." He soothingly rubbed my back.

Instead of talking I cried. Niall just held me close and whispered comforting thoughts. It was impossible to make sense of it all. Everyone had always said it was my fault. That it should have been me. For a long time I believed them. Being with them. Liam, Niall, Jesy, and all of them had made me feel alive again. I wasn't numb anymore. The bad part about that was some feelings really hurt. All I knew was that it was now or never. If Niall no longer loved me, well I didn't want to think about that. "Drew and I were together for a long time. We were at a party and got drunk. We decided to leave. My parents weren't home so we were going to go to my house. I was driving and lost control of the car. We rolled. When I woke up I was in the hospital."

"Oh my god Isabell." Niall said. Surprise filled his voice, but the way he held me and kissed my hair was full of forgiveness.

"Nobody would tell me. That's how I knew. His best friend had to tell me. Ricky told me it was all my fault. he said it should've been me that died. And I believed him. I believed him for so long!"

"No princess. You're right where you need to be. It wasn't your fault. If he were driving then you would be the one dead." A tear splashed on my forehead. I hadn't realized he begun crying as well.

"I still did it Niall. I killed him."

"Isabell it wasn't your fault. Ricky was hurting and he needed someone to blame. Can't you see?" I never answered him. He gently took my hands in his na dkissed every scar. "I love you. You can't keep blaming yourself and you can't keep hurting yourself. Because if you go my heart goes with you. No more of this okay?"

It wasn't a question, but I really didn't mind being bossed around. "Okay." I agreed. Then I sat up and wiped a tear off his cheek. "Why are you crying?"

"Because I love you." He pecked my cheek. "And you scared the shit out of me." Niall layed back down and pulled me with him so that I was laying on top of him. "You need to talk to me. No matter how bad it gets I'm not leaving you. Can I ask you something? When was the last time."

"About a week ago."

"Does anyone else know?"

"Only Jesy."

"You do realize that we have to tell Liam right."

"No we don't." I argued.

"Yes we do. I'll go with you if it would help."

"He's going to flip out."

"Yeah he will be angry, but only because he cares about you."

"Yeah."

"Yeah he does." He kissed my forehead and allowed the conversation to drop. "We do have to go home though. Liam's actually a bit mad at me for not bringing you home last night."

"But what if I just wanna stay right here?" I mumbled into his shirt. "You're warm."

"Come on darling. " He told me. "We've  got to go home before Liam explodes."

"I guess." Pecking his lips I got up to look for my bracelets. Niall lifted up the blankets to help me. They were hidden under my pillow. Silently he slipped them on to my wrist. Hurt filled his eyes. It pained me to know I had put it there. That was it. I'm done with it. Hurting myself was one thing. Hurting him was something completely different. Tears filled my eyes again. "What's wrong princess?" Niall asked me. This wonderful boy had no idea how amazing he was.

"I just love you so much. I didn't think I would ever love anyone like this again. Actually I never thought any one would love me like this. Don't go away Niall."

"Never." Niall leaned against me and rested his head on my shoulder. He wrapped his arms around my waist to pull me closer then looked back into my eyes. "Your so beautiful and fun. You care so much Isabell. When will you realize your worth it?"

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Hey guys, I just was chewing myself out for how long it's been and realized I've been slacking on the author's notes as well. It is okay to yell at me. Sorry so much has been going on. School is almost done so teachers are loading on the assignements. I know horrible excuse. So  glad you came back to keep reading. Love you all!!! -Lexie