Beautiful Chaos. || Rucas

5

Riley

I wake up naked beside of Lucas. My head is pounding.

"Lucas. " i moan
"Huh? " he says sleepily
"what happened?" i ask

He pops up with a smirk.

"we had sex. " he smirks
"oh... " i say as the memory's flood into my brain.
"finally." he says
"what? " finally I dint have to pretend.... Pretend that I like you...pretend I want to be with you." he cheers
"wha-what?" i ask
"yeah. " he laughs

I quickly get up and put on my clothing.

"where are you going? To go cry? " he teases
"yeah, I thought you liked me, maybe even loved me. Remember when you asked what I want really bad? I wanted to feel real... To feel loved... To actually be loved! " i yell

" i saw you on the street, thinking you need help, not love! It can't be love! Love doesn't exist! It's not real! You can wish for it on five million stars, but you Will never find it!" he yells

I walk out slamming the door.

***
A week later

I walk to school alone, tired, depressed... Anything you can think of that's bad. I walk through TGE doors and see Maya.

"hey" she smiles
(she knows about Riley's foster parents.)
"hi." i sigh
"what's wrong?" she ask
"nothing. Just tired. " i fake a smile

Flashback

" i saw you on the street, thinking you need help, not love! It can't be love! Love doesn't exist! It's not real! You can wish for it on five million stars, but you Will never find it!" he yells

Flashback

"riiilleeyy" Maya says waving her hands
"there's something you're not telling me. It's deep, I know it. I can see the pain swimming in your eyes. " she sighs.
"come here. " i say pulling her into the janitors closet.

After I finish telling her the story i watch her face.

"it will be okay. " she smiles
"i don't even know if we used protection. I've been getting sick lately... " i cry
"you need to get a test. I'll come with you. " she sighs
"Maya, I can't be pregnant, I'm only 16...can you imagine the looks and the beating I'll get? " i cry
"i know honey. " she sighs

***

We reach Maya's house with the test in my trembling hands.

I walk out of her bathroom, anxious for the result...

Then I see...
"oh my god... "

Hey guys
Tee heee
Ily

In another life