It had been exactly 7 hours, 31 minutes and 8 seconds since she had sex with Klaus. Not that she was counting or anything, but there was moistness gathering in her lower abdomen once again that night and she couldn't keep her mind off it.
Once she got home, she felt guilt. And it wasn't that 'Omg what if I hurt Stefan?' kind of guilt, it was the kind of guilt that she felt paralyzed (crippled) with remorse, the kind where she was blindly walking through out the house, clutching her left breast where her heart was (after tonight, did she even have one?) the kind where you snap at your little brother and then continue to break down in his arms as he held you to him, worrying that something happened to you, that someone broke your heart (he didn't know she was doing the breaking).
She felt dirty, like she had sex with a wolf or their worst enemy. She snorts, because that was exactly what she had done.
Disgusted with herself, she scrubbed her body repeatedly until it bled, scratched marring her stomach and all healing just as fast as they appeared. She liked the pain, she realized. After feeling so numb these past couple of months, she finally felt like she could feel, and ironically, the fast pooling blood beneath her feet (the exact one that was going down the shower drain) made her feel alive.
(It was probably his blood that made her feel that way.)
And there it was again, blood.
Five letters, one word and thousands of different meanings. Once she thought of the warm, burgundy liquid slowly dripping down her throat, the images of them on the forest floor returned. Bodies joint, lips dancing with each other and furious thrusts-
Breathe.
By the time she left the shower, the water had turned cold and it was already 6 a.m. Looks like she would have to go to school either way. Just because there was a vampire hunter and a nasty case of (blonde) bitch strutting around the school grounds didn't mean that she was missing her Senior Year. Connor can't do anything to her and Rebekah is a lonely bitch with no one that cares about her which suited Elena just fine. After all the bullshit she had caused, she deserved it.
After what had happened (after what they have done), she knew she needed to tell Stefan. Damon would kill her and she wouldn't blame him. What if everyone turned on her? It was ridiculous because Stefan and Damon had done worse than her and everyone still loved dear St. Stefan. Damon was his own person and his personality was one of a kind but he sure as hell wasn't innocent.
Klaus on the other hand, (she had thought he was pure evil) was completely different from both of them. Elena guessed he was kind of her bittersweet escape from the arms of the Salvatore's.
With shaky fingers, she got dressed in a white habit top. She buttoned the buttons slowly and put on her favorite necklace, the one hanging on a black chain with a silver key as a pendant. She still remembered Matt giving it to her just before she lost her virginity to him at some junior party. The next thing she put on was a floosy, burgundy skirt that reached her knees but the hem only covered her upper thighs, the flowing material being see through. When she finished doing her hair (side pony tail) she quickly applied light make-up and put on her black ankle boots along with her washed denim jacket which she had gotten over the summer at one of her shopping trips with Caroline. Who cares if it was last season? It looked good on her. Seeing as she had forty minutes left before she had to get to school, she quickly coated her fingernails with see-through fingernail polish and the grabbed her bag. Just before she exited the house, she sent a quick text to Stefan, asking him to see her.
The only way she wouldn't be able to continuously hurt him more each day was if she was honest with him. She loved him but ever since he had left with Klaus last year, it just hadn't been working. Their time had passed and she loved all that they had been through together but the only way to make him happy was to let him go. He may not have realized it yet, but it really was. He should be free, once and for all.
