You have to choose between me and him

Chapter 46

*Holly's POV*

Headache, it hurts. It feels like my head is a big stone, I can't lift it from the pillow. I try to open my eyes but it's so fucking light in the room. I'm not sure where I am or what I did last night all I hear is someone singing and strumming on a guitar.

"And for you, oh, I would walk a thousand miles. To be in your arms, holding my hand. Oh I, oh I.. I love you and everything's gonna be alright, ai-ai-ai-aight. Be alrigt, ai-ai-ai-aight. Through the long nights and the bright lights, don't you worry"

I let out a big groan to shut him up, it kinda worked, he started to talk instead.

"Morning beautiful"

My head didn't like to hear anything so I fumbled with closed eyes after the second pillow. When I didn't find it he threw it on my head instead of me throwing it on him. I took it and put it over my head, trying to close out every sound.

"First hangover, huh?" He chuckled.

Ah, that explains alot.

"Where.." I try to speak but my voice cracks.

"We're at my mum's"

His mums? Maura's or someone random's?

I move the pillow and open my eyes, it's a very childish room. Blue walls, an irish flag with the Derby County FC's logo, a white drawer, a white wardrobe, a desk with a chair. He was sitting on the chair with his guitar and smiled against me.

"Niall" I breathed.

"Who else would it be?" He chuckled.

I shrug my head, the pain became worse so I let out a groan.

Niall left the room, I could hear him rush down the stairs, slamming a cabinet door and then rush up an into the room again. He handed me an Aspirin, "Shit" He mumbled and ran downstairs again, he came up with a glass of water.

He sat down on his chair again and just looked at me.

"Can I have the water or is it for you?" I asked quietly.

"Oh, yeah" He said and gave me the glass. "What do you remember?"

"Uhm, playing paintball in the forest, me and Justin won and then we went to a bar. I assume I drank for the first time"

"After that we went home here and you wanted to do things"

I looked at him with big eyes, "What kind of things?"

"You wanted me to undress you, you wanted to have sex and I think you wanted to give me a blowjob"

"Oh.. and what did we do?"

"You undressed yourself, nothing happened. I don't want to sleep with you when you're drunk, I don't want you to do stuff you actually don't want to do. And right, I was with you in bed until you fell asleep then I left you alone and slept on the couch"

I nodded, "Tour continues today?"

"No I'm free today, we're going to a funeral"

"Greg" I mumbled.

He looked down on his guitar, "Mmh" He picked up the guitar, looked at me and gave me a weak smile. "I've got you something"

I looked at him curiously and he started to strum the melody to an unfimiliar song.

"Everyone gives you hate but they don't see, how beautiful you are to me. A tear stream down your face but please don't cry, you have a wonderful smile. I wanna fix your broken heart, I wanna see no more scars. I wanna show you all the good things in your life, you could be living in a paradise. In a pa-pa-paradise. You make me feel like I'm not in pain and that all I do is to complain. Someone like you is hard to find, better keep that in your mind. I wanna fix your broken heart, I wanna see no more scars. I wanna show you all the good things in your life, you could be living in a paradise. In a pa-pa-paradise. Piece after pice, you're fallong down. Piece after piece, I pick you up. You're like a puxxle I'm trying to fix. I wanna fix your broken heart, I wanna see no more scars. I wanna show you all the good things in your life, you could be living in a paradise. In a pa-pa-paradise"

"Wow, that's beautiful" I gasped. "You didn't sleep so much on the couch did you?"

He blushed, "No, not really"

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*Niall's POV*

I walked up to him, he was there but on the same time he wasn't. The lads where here too, first we all sang 'Moments' together and now they were singing 'If you could see me now' by The Script.

"I still look for your face in the crowd, oh if you could see me now. Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow, oh if you could see me now"

I didn't hear more, my tears filled my eyes and started to flood down my cheeks, all I heard was myself sobbing like a child.

"Would you tap me on my back or would you criticise me?" I mumbled for myself.

I laid down a red rose, "I'll always love you" I whispered.

While I was standing there my mum and dad came walking up to us. Now the whole family was reuniod for the first time in many years. My dad gave me a hug, I hadn't seen him since he left us. I cried into his chest, I couldn't stand it anymore. After we parted my mum gave me a kiss on the cheek. She gave me a weak smile to resure me that everything was fine.

Really it wasn't fine, I had lived my whole life with my brother. We had talked about everything, he had taught me the rights and wrongs in life. Even tho the things he said was right wasn't always right but I still loved him. I still love him and that's why I miss him so much now.

I stormed out off the church, I couldn't take it. I know it was rude to leave but I just couldn't, he was gone. My 26 year old brother, my father figure for almost 15 years. My best friend, he was gone.

I ran down to the lake, I took all my clothes off and walked into the cold water. I walked until the water was all over my body, I took a deep breath. Filled my lungs with air for the last time.

"Niall don't!" I knew who that voice belonged to, I would recognise it anywhere but this was the last time I would hear it.

I continued my walk into the ice cold water. My body went numb, I couldn't feel my feet and legs anymore. I swallowed alot of water, then I couldn't feel my arms. Everything went black, I couldn't hear, see, say or feel anything.

Soon we'll be together Greg

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Author's note

That unfamiliar song Niall sang, is a song I wrote the lyrics to. Just so you know, let me know what you think :)

Love you ~ Louice