Burning ✔

Chapter 44-Alone

Chapter 44-Alone

Play list: (Justin Bieber: Alone)

He left. And I just stood there feeling lonely as hell, there was a big hole inside of me and I sadly knew that he was the only person that could fill it up. My eyes were closed when I suddenly smelled smoke? My head whipped in the direction of the smoke, which was coming from behind me. My eyes widened and I quickly turned off the stove.

I stood there staring at the burned pancake, I was so lost in my own thoughts that I didn't hear the front door open and someone walk in the kitchen.

"Maddie? Are you okay? " I heard her concerned voice ask as she placed a hand on my shoulder.

"I don't know, Dee, I feel so lost and I don't know what to do" I said quietly still staring at the burned pancake.

"What happened? Do you wanna talk about it?" She asked, but I knew that she didn't mean it as a question, she was gonna get an answer out of me one way or another.

Dallas cleaned the pan and threw the burned pancake in the garbage bin before we headed to my room. I laid down on my back and she laid on her left side with her head resting on her palm.

"So..." she trailed off after a long silence of me just staring at the ceiling and her staring at me, trying to figure out what's wrong.

"He's done alot of things that has hurt me alot, but I didn't give up and still tried to fight for us...I just don't think that he has the will to fight and I'm tired of this feeling...I'm so hurt and-" I paused blinking back my tears.

"I feel pain whenever I look in his, Dee, the same eyes that once made me feel safe and warm" I said as tears started rolling down my face.

"It's okay, love hurts, but it's something that's really worth fighting for" she said wiping my tears away with her thumbs.

"I've fought, Dee, I'm just tired and I feel like our love always gets interrupted by either his schedule or someone" I said sealing my eyes shut, this pain I was feeling was worse than the pain of being pregnant.

"Maddie. Everyone knows, you guys know, that your love is something magical, something I've never seen before, only in movies or romantic books. I think that that's something you guys should never let go of. I know he's hurt you, both of you guys are hurting...but if you think that being away from each other will ease the pain? Then you're dead wrong my friend. It'll only make it worse" she said running her fingers through my hair.

She knows how to calm me down, I've always found it calming whenever someone ran their fingers through my hair.

"I just feel like we need a break...we've been forced into this, Dee. I just want to give him a chance and to choose what he really wants, the life that he really wants to live, not a life he's been forced into" I said.

"Are you sure about that?" She asked sounding concerned.

"If it's meant to be, then we'll be back together and even much more stronger" I said looking up at her.

"And if it's not? " she asked frowning.

"Then it was never ours from the beginning" I said painfully.

I made up my mind, nothing that Dallas nor Ariana or even the whole crew said was able to change my mind. I had my mind set on something and nothing was going to make me change my decision, being stubborn certainly didn't help either. Justin wasn't gonna divorce me and I knew that, everyone knew that, and that's why I decided to take matters into my own hands.

I didn't want to do this, I swear, but like I said before, love shouldn't hurt like this. We're only hurting each other and even though I know that our love is so strong, but it was still broken by the simplest and stupidest things. The thing that scared me the most, was that we didn't even try to fix this, we didn't have the will to fight for something that obviously meant so much for us. I feel like we've taken our love for granted and I really do wanna give him a chance, give us a chance to choose.