Operation Infiltration

Chapter 6: First Day Finally Over -Skylar-

I continually glanced at Lita the whole way home just to make sure she wouldn't do something she'd regret.
"You don't have to keep checking on me, Skylar. I'm fine." stated Lita avoiding my gaze.
I replied by stepping in front of her and putting my hands on her shoulder and saying, "Oh really I don't have to? Cause I'm pretty if you had just watched me try and kill myself you'd being doing the same thing. I know you well enough to know that you are totally not fine even though you say you are. I care about you too much to lose you, and you have given me no choice but to worry about you 24/7."
"Well, why don't you stop worrying about me and worry about yourself!" Lita said with each word getting louder and louder and her voice getting angrier and angrier.
"You know what. F**k you, Lita. I've been there for you through everything and all you do is treat me like shit. I'm sorry you didn't get what you wanted today because what you wanted was something that none of us could care to see. Do you have any idea what it would be like if you did kill yourself? Do you know what the consequences would be if it did happen? No, because God forbid for once in your life you didn't actually care what others thought. Sooner or later one of us couldn't take it anymore and one of us would kill ourselves because we wanted to be with you again, or because we couldn't forgive ourselves, or that we blamed ourselves for your death. So I'm sorry that I care. But I can't stand around and watch you end your life. So until you get yourself figure out don't talk to me." And with that I stormed away, I had had enough for one day and didn't need anymore from Lita. Maybe one day she'll realize that some people in her life aren't just pretending to care they really do care. Maybe I shouldn't have left. I admit it wasn't the best idea when she was already going through hell, but I couldn't just stand there and wait for something interesting to happen for me to jump in and save the day. I had to know that people actually wanted me to be their friends, not just someone's shoulder to cry on when something bad happened. After all, at some point I had to stop being everyone else's knight in shining and be my own for once.
Out of breathe and tears streaking down my face, I finally arrived at home. I fumbled with my keys in my hand until I finally found the right one and unlocked the front door. Praise the Lord, I was the first one home today because I don't think I could be able to explain everything that had just happened. Climbing the stairs, I reached my room. Nothing had been moved since this morning. Everything was the same, clothes all over the floor, bed unmade,food wrappers everywhere, it was enough to drive my mom wild. After quickly cleaning up the floor of my clothes and throwing away the food wrappers. I quickly glanced at myself in the mirror. Man, did I look bad. Mascara running down my face, eyes puffy and still filled with tears. After ten minutes of just staring at myself in the mirror, I finally decided to get some hot chocolate from down stairs. I know, I know it sounds weird right? Hot chocolate in the middle of summer... But trust me it's just what I needed when I felt down. The warmth of the hot chocolate just spreads everywhere and I just instantly felt better. Yet I wish it was the cure for everything but it wasn't. I still looked like hell, and I still felt like shit, but I felt moderately better than I did before. From the distance I hear a car door slam and immediately knew it was my mom who had arrived home from work. Running as fast as I could with the boiling hot hot chocolate in my hand, I sprinted to the stairs, climbing up them into my bedroom and hurling the door shut.
"Skylar! I'm home!" She hollered for the bottom of the stairs.
"Okay mom I'll be down there in a minute!" I shouted in reply, running over to my mirror and quickly taking off and reapplying my make up.
I arrived downstairs in a matter of minutes strutting into the family room with my hot chocolate in hand.
"I take it you've had a bad first day?" My mom stated barely glancing up from the newspaper she was reading.
"I guess you could say that." I replied, taking a seat opposite of her.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She questioned placing her newspaper down on the coffee table and looking at me.
"Mother, I think the last thing I would ever do is talk about stupid drama that you probably wouldn't understand." I said standing up and walking out of the room.
"Okay sweetheart, just know I'm here to talk if you ever need me." She hollered picking up the paper and continuing to read it.
After finishing my hot chocolate and placing the mug into the sink I make my way back upstairs to where I had left my phone plugged in all day. Since the night, before I had forgotten to plug it in. I turn it on and my phone literally blew up. I'm getting texts from everyone. Mainly Lita.
Lita: I'm so sorry Skylar.
Lita: I know you care!
Lita: But nobody else does. Not my family they could care less.
Lita: You're all I have..
Lita: please forgive me.
Lita: I can't stand you being mad at me.
Lita: I'm sorry, Jack.
At that moment I crack a smile. Lita had been my best friend for years and it was our little secret that I was always an going to be the Jack to her Rose. But then the smile quickly faded as I realized how mad I really am right now. So I decide not to text her back.
My heart drops. There it was the one thing I was looking for. A text from Conner. Immediately my heart melted. I hadn't texted him all summer. Mainly because he was all the way across the country visiting family. But I was surprised he made the first move. Maybe he missed me since we didn't really talk that much today.
Conner: Hey Sky how are you?
Normally this was our conversation starter and it would last us hours. But I think today he wanted me to give him and different response beside 'I'm good how are you?' I think today he wanted me to answer him truthfully. So that we could talk about what happened today at school. Truth be told I really didn't want to talk about it, but if it was the only way to text Conner then why the hell not?!
Skylar: I'm not okay. Today was the worst first day ever. I wish we didn't have to go to school.
Conner answered me instantly as though he was waiting for me to reply.
Conner: Same here. Idk what I'm gonna do now. I have to cover up this stupid black eye.
Skylar: Wait! What?! How the hell did you get a black eye?
Conner: Brett and I got in a huge fight after to the football practice. In the end I was mad that he had just kissed Lita because he just made her all confused about how she felt about him. And he was mad because if he didn't kiss her she would've died. And then I told him he was an asshole for doing what he did to Lita and then boom I get punched in the eye.
Skylar: Ouch! I'm sorry I wish I could help. I'm having the same problems over here with Lita. She thinks that nobody cares about her and we should've let her kill herself. So in the end, I stormed off and told her to not talk to me until she sorted her problems out.
Conner: How could she think we don't care when we just spent an hour trying to convince her not to kill herself? Maybe since we're both not talking to our friends, we should talk to each other. Like in school.
Physically my heart was pounding at that moment. Mentally I was freaking out because Conner actually wanted I hang out with me.
Skylar: Yeah sure! That sounds fun. At least we can ignore our friends together and not feel bad about it.
Conner: Yeah well I better go eat some dinner I'll talk to you some time later or tomorrow. ;)
Skylar: okay. Talk to you later. :)
"OMG!!!!" I screamed the next thing I know my mom is whizzing through my bedroom door with a pair of scissors in her hand.
"What! What is it?!?" She hollered glancing around my room to make sure everything was okay.
"Conner just told me he wants to hang out more! And he sent me the winky face." I shouted staring at my phone in disbelief.
"Oh my gosh, you nearly gave me a fright. Don't do that again or next time I'll come in here with Dad's old army guns." My mother bellowed slowly bringing the scissors down to her side.
"Sorry mom it won't happen again" I apologized quickly still beaming at my phone.
"It's okay. Dinner will be ready in an hour. Ty will be home in thirty make sure you shower if you want to before he gets home so he doesn't use up all the hot water. And clean up this mess." She proclaimed glancing at my room.
"But I just cleaned it." I whined
"If you just cleaned it then, I just finished watching the 6 pm news oh wait a minute it's only 5! Clean your room young lady." She directed, walking back out of my room and down the stairs.
The rest of the night went by quicker than my grandma on ice skates and trust me when she gets going there's no stopping her. All I could think about was Conner all night. My heart literally melted at the sound of his name. And each time Lita texted me, I always hoped it would be Conner. By the end of the night I had driven myself crazy and had ended up looking through an old scrapbook that I had made with all the pranks that we pulled and all that were pulled on us. I only looked at these because in most of the picture Conner is in them smiling or doing something silly. I was just dozing off when I got a final buzz on my phone and checked who it was.
Conner: Goodnight Sky, you're looking beautiful tonight ;p.
Of course I knew what he meant because he always used make this joke with me about how my name is also the part of the atmosphere seen from the earth. But still he called me beautiful. And with that, my heart literally melted.
Skylar: Goodnight Conner, I'll always be watching over you... Literally ;).
With that I dozed off into a dreamless sleep.