Im Warning you all know. This part is gonna mess with your emotions! Enjoy :(
We get to the airport and get thought security. Thankfully there are no problems. We sit in the uncomfortable airport chairs and wait for Hbomb and Parker to show up.
After about half an hour of waiting they finally show up. By the time they show up Joe is already asleep. Our flight leaves in an hour so we have nothing to worry about.
"Hello People" Hbomb says and walks up to us. We have met so many times and its too early to hug.
"Aye" I say, looking at them. They sit down and proceed to fall asleep.
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TIME SKIP TO LANDING
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"Wake up" Zack says shaking me.
"No" I say not moving. I dont plan on getting up anytime soon.
"I got her" Mark says. I then feel myself being lifted. I cuddle my head in his chest and fall asleep.
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TIME SKIP TO MADDIE BEING WOKEN UP
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"MADDIE HELP" Zack screams and shakes me.
"Whats wrong" I say snd shoot up. I rub my eyes and look around and realize im in a bed. I must be in the cube house. I look at him and see the fear in his eyes.
"ITS JOE! HES HAVING AN ANXIETY ATTACK" Zack says and starts to quickly wheel out of the room. I stand up and follow him. We walk into Joe's room in the cube house. I see him on the ground on his knees. He breathing loudly and is holding his chest. He didnt pass out sadly. Passing out would have saved him the pain of not being able to breathe.
I walk over to him and kneel next to him. I rub his back as he non stop cries. I grab his head and put it in my lap. I run my fingers through his hair then rub small circles in his back.
"Its okay Joe. Breathe" I say and he continues to cry. He quickly stand up and runs to the bathroom. He goes in and locks the door behind him.
"Oh no" I say and look at Zack.
"Thats wasnt an anxiety attack was it" Zack asks.
"No. Thats the shitty world of depression" I say.
"Why would he be depressed" Zack asks.
"Hes been upset lately. Remember" I say.
"Oh" Zack says and looks down.
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JOES POV
(TRIGGER WARNING-If you are sensitive to depression and blood do NOT read on)
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Everyone hates me. Everyone. Im ugly, unwanted, and annoying. I dont want to be here. No one cares about me. My parents dont love me. They say they do but they dont. Its there job to act like they love me. I sit on the bathroom floor and look at the contents in my hands.
A razor.
I cry softly and slide it across my wrist. I can barely see where Im cutting. I hold the Razor to my wrist
"One for being ugly" I whisper and slide the blade across my wrist.
"Two for talking too much" I whisper, making another cut.
"three for being unwanted" I say, repeating the action again.
"Four for being emo" I say, finishing my last cut.
I make a few more small cuts and smile.
Then I have an Idea.
I put the razor to my wrist and start to write
M
U
T
E
I dont plan on speaking. Everyone would enjoy that more. As I look down the door opens.
I start to cry and look down. I dont want to be here. They dont want me here. I dont want me here. Maddie runs over to me and hugs me. Zack wheels over to me. He puts one hand on the ground and slides out of his wheelchair.
He grabs my wrist.
"Omg Joe" He says and looks at me. His eyes are filled with sadness. Maddie has the same look on her face. Im causing my friends pain. I am pain and I make pain. My whole body feels pain. Maddie Looks at my wrist.
"Joe why did you put mute" She says and I grab a peice of toilet paper and the pen on the counter.
I write Im no longer talking. You would all want it that way. Society did this. Im doing this for a month or so.
"Joe please dont go mute" Maddie says. She always knows not to say to much. She knows what will make me upset. Thats what I adore most about her. I shake my head and she nods.
Zack slowly stands up and walks to the sink. He puts all his weight on the sink. He puts his hand out for me to grab. I grab it and he helps pull me up. He lightly grabs my arm and looks at it. He grabs the rubbing alcohol and dabs my cuts. I flinch and he looks at me.
" I wont hurt you dont worry. Just tell.. I uhm mean nod if it hurts" Zack says looking at the sink. He always gets embarrassed when he messes up even the smallest things. He puts my hand under the sink. It burns but I dont nod, not wanting to put more pressure on Zack. Once he is done cleaning my cuts Maddie walks over with a towel.
"Ready" Maddie says. Zack needs to keep my shaking arm still while Maddie wraps it.
"Wait" Zack says. He looks at my wrist. He kisses everyone of my cuts. He then hold my hand while Maddie wraps it. I smile at him. He looks embarrassed.
"uhm sorry" He says and looks down and then back up. I smile, grab his hand and kiss it. He smiles.
I grab my paper and write to him.
You should sit down. Your back.
He nods and I slowly help him back into his chair.
"Thanks" He says and I nod.
"You should lay down. You have had a long day" Zack says and I nod again. He leads me to my room and I sit on the bed. I lay down and look at the ceiling.
"goodnight Joe" Zack says and wheels himself out.
"text me if you need anything" Maddie says, wiping tears from her eyes and walking out.
DIFFERENT FORMAT AND IM LOVING IT!
THIS PART WAS SO SAD TO WRITE IM LITERALLY CRYING😭😭😭😭😭
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