Queen Esther Taylors' Diary
Written by
Zineb Jaafari
"It is hard to dream of fantasies and know that they don't exist in reality.
But I say it is harder to know that fantasies are real and acknowledge that you are just not a part of them"
Unknown
Chapter One
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It's official the universe doesn't want me to write my story, which makes me wonder why am I writing this in the first place? Why do I want to remember all of it so badly?
Is it because through the endless pain, the suffering and the self loathing I somehow managed to finally accept myself for the person that I 'am or should I say have become but this is my life my fate my own disaster.
I think it's really ironic how sometimes we want certain things to happen, but the exact opposite happens in my life I've been through a lot hell I've been through it all, but that doesn't matter I didn't start this book so I can complain about my life,I'm still trying to figure out why though, but now let's focus on writing it down.
Being Esther Taylors has taught me to be a killer and a heartless one at that for others that name might be holy or sacred or godly for me it's a curse, my curse.
life has treated me badly and for that I took revenge I killed them all I tore their heads off I ripped them apart i watched as they bled out and laughed at their screams of agony and pain I'm a monster I know that, I blamed my father and everyone around me for what happened to Alex someone whom I've trusted and who just like all the others betrayed me
Being Esther taylors.It's not about perfection I hate it I hate every little thing about it the money the lifestyle the killing the blood it makes me sick.
I don't know if this is some kind of a journal or whatever
PAIN changed me I've became this person that I 'am because of it I want to take a little time to talk about the people around me my circle aka *friends* and even a few strangers worth mentioning I guess I should start by the first name that pops into my head
*Nathan'
one of the few people that I can actually trust a member of the resistance I grew up with him in the base alongside all the other resistance members Nathan is unique in every possible way his boyish looking smile his smooth dark hair his tanned skin his contagious smile he's capable of making anyone smile.
Nathan has been through a lot his family was attacked they were all killed he doesn't like to talk about it .It was a long time ago it's not his family's death that he can't talk about it's what happened to him when they were attacked he was abused physically and sexually he was broken when my father found him and turned him yeah my dad did that quite a lot at least Nate never tried to kill me instead he's an amazing friend he and charlotte have this really weird relationship but I'm sure they'll make it work I'll make sure of it
SEBASTIAN*
my protector, my brother, my very trusted friend the things that me and Sebastian have done can't be put to paper there's just too much
hmm let me try
create chaos in Australia
trespassed on rogue packs territory
