Chapter Four
i don't know how it happened or why? but i'm on earth i somehow managed to crawl out of that hell hole literarily you're probably wondering how i knew that well i had dirt on my nails, i was wearing my usual clothing dark jeans black shirt and a jacket i was clean yet i felt dirty it wasn't just physically but mostly emotionally i couldn't walk i couldn't talk for a few minutes i just laid there and looked at the beautiful blue sky.
beautiful such a strange word ,a word that i haven't heard or used in centuries literarily
i was used to disgusting and degrading words and for me to describe something as beautiful has become rare in fact i haven't heard it in centuries simply because the place i was in was just too atrocious ,i blinked a couple of times trying to adjust to the brightness of the sun spending centuries in the dark would do that to you i tried to move but i couldn't i started panicking as i realized that i'm paralyzed as my hyperventilation grew more intense and my body felt like it was going to explode yet i couldn't move a finger.
suddenly a deafening high pitched sound cut through the air ,the sound was so intense that the trees started to shake but i realized that i was shaking as well and in that exact moment my senses kicked in and i could hear everything the first thing i heard was a scream a very familiar one my own i was screaming and i couldn't stop screaming i couldn't cry but i felt like screaming reflected how i felt at that moment.
i felt like i was possessed like my body wasn't my own but for once in centuries of pain my body was my own it is my own i felt like my breathing starting to return to normal and my screaming reduced to moans slowly i managed to sit up looking around the woods i wrapped my hands around my waist while looking around just waiting for something to pounce on me or to hear their sickening laugh as they tell me that this is just a dream and that i'm still in Hell just thinking about it makes me shiver.
I must have walked for hours that day until i found a house it was owned by an old lady apparently i was in a small town called 'Redemption' i chuckled humorlessly at the irony i dialed Ryder's number but apparently he changed his cell number i don't know how long I've spent down there Time in Hell is different i asked the old lady what year it was which she gave me a strange look for in return but she still answered the question i could have easily compelled her but i didn't ,i could have also fed off her but i didn't for two reasons the first is that i wasn't hungry which was quite strange but the second reason is that i haven't properly fed in a long time or compelled anyone for that matter.
and i also couldn't shake that feeling of disgust it filled every fiber of my body even after i showered i was disgusted by myself as i showered i tried to scrub it off it was like i was expecting the water to wash off all that traumatic torment all that emotional pain i flinched every time i touched my waist i wasn't comfortable being in my birthday suit i wanted to shower as fast as possible so i can put on clothes being naked made me feel exposed and vulnerable .
the old lady was nice enough to let a strange girl who looked like Hell no that's wrong there is nothing like Hell well Marlene was her name she gave me some clothes that she said belonged to her grand daughter she gave me a smile and i tried to smile in return but i couldn't i wasn't capable of expressing any other emotion other than fear and pain Marlene was also nice enough to let me stay with her she said that she felt alone in her house her husband died a few years ago i tried to listen to what she was saying yet i found myself drowning into emptiness and finding the wall a piece of art
something snapped me out of my daze and i found myself looking into concerned green eyes
'i beg your pardon?"
