dear diary,
alright
let's talk about parents.
I hate when I'm told to clean my room and when I'm in the middle of cleaning it my mom barges in and starts screaming her head of about how it's still messy like YEAH IM FUCKING CLEAN IT DER. i don't know it just annoys me.
my mom happens to be very dramatic and if she doesn't like something, she'll tell you and make it harsh. and it really sucks and I know I could have it 2939x worse but let me rant about this k thanks.
like the moment I don't say thank you every 5 minutes to my mom she's like; WHY DO YOU HATE ME ALL I DO IS LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU HOW DARE YOU YOURE SO DISRESPECTFUL TO ME I COULD JUST TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO ME. I'm like chill ma. sometimes I just wish I lived in a box like my dad isn't problematic he's like a hippie not lying. my friends in marching band are like; is your dad a hippie?! and I nod.
ANYWAY.
I also want to dye my hair but my mom refuses to bleach my hair because she thinks it's gonna totally ruin it like my bestfriend has bleached her hair 4 times its so soft and healthy.
my parents are very strict but the moment I say the wrong thing a switch flips in their mind and I'm suddenly satan like no Sam and dean put him away a long time ago do you not remember we watched it together. I also hate it when I'm right but they suddenly word it and flipped the situation so they're right.
like I can sit there and be totally correct about a situation but they'll convince everyone that they're right this is like my grind group I'm out
I think I just find too many things that annoy be and that I should work on it. I mean that's what my mom told m- WAIT.
see what I mean.
they twist your mind in so many different direction like one moment you're in Liam's lane then BAM you're in Harry's lane and you're sitting there like; what just happened???
and you can't talk about your interests, no no no. then you're just looking for attention in the family but when they say you never talk you're just like ???!?!!:&:!;&,&::!!!??? they wonder why I stay in my room a lot it's because of them. I think I'm just judged wherever I go where can I flee so I'm not judged and I'm a safe little meme someone tell me STAT.
and once in a while I want peace a quiet and I don't want to worry about school but my mom wants me to only think about good grades and studystudystudy blah blah blah and more blah. I also don't have any desire what so ever to go to college and my mom won't have it like I'm not comfortable with the thought of going to college can't you just accept that.
speaking of accepting, I came out the my parents that I am pansexual and my mom screamed at me cause she wasn't having any of it. I was just like; k lol I like who I like throw me out for all I care I'm happy.
why can't people just get over the fact that not everyone is straight UGH BYE.
-hayden.
