Mr. Cinder -slow updates-

Chapter 5

I woke up in a bed. It wasn't my bed, it was soft and warm. I moved around and felt something behind me. I went to move and felt and arm around my waist. I turned my head and saw a sleeping Danny. He look so peaceful. His gray eyes hidden behind his long eyelashes. He seemed to have a faint smile.

I began to mess with his hair. I played with it a little. I tucked it behind an ear. I slowly started to trace his facial features with my fingers. I traced down his jaw and up to his lips. They were soft and full. He moaned a little causing me to remove my hand from his face.

His eyes fluttered open and pulled me into his chest. He kissed my head, and rubbed my back. I snuggled up into him. I took a deep breath and his sent filled my nose. He tightened his hold in me when I began I sniffle.

"Hey beautiful. What's wrong." he asked. I snuggled closer and took a deep breath, "I miss my mamma." I said. He kissed my forehead again, "Im sorry baby." I felt myself blush a little.

He went to get up and leave me. I grabbed his arm when he got up. "Please don't leave me." I said sadly. He looked at me with a gentile smile, "I'll be right back." He leaned down and gave me a kiss. He left the room, I lay down on the bed looking up at the ceiling.

I heard movement down stairs and got up. I decided to go check it out, I quietly made my way down the stairs. I got to the bottom of them and I heard two voices. "Go away!" Danny yelled. "No!" another voice yelled. I rounded the corner and saw something that broke my heart even more.

There, Danny was pushed against the counter, being kissed by some guy. That's when I noticed that he was kissing him back. His arms were snaked around his neck, legs around his waist. The guy let go of his mouth and began to kiss his neck, Danny let out a low moan.

I let out a sharp sob and ran back upstairs. I gathered my things and ran back down the stairs. I heard someone running after me, "Alex, wait!" Danny screamed. I stopped and looked at him with teary eyes, "Im sorry." I ran down the drive away an into the street.

I just kept running and running intel I came to town. I slowed down and stopped on top of the hill and tried to catch my breath. I felt tears threatening to spill down my face. I forced my feet to move.

I dragged myself down my street. I went up my stairs and looked at the front door. I pulled out a key and unlocked it. I knew that no one was home. Ana would be at work. Justin and Tyler would either be at practices or at their girlfriends houses.

I made my way into the living room. I saw how messy it was. And just sighed. Letting my bag slip from my shoulders I began to clean. I cleaned the whole house. I even went out in the back yard and cleaned the pool, reorganized the shed. Pulled weeds in the garden. Everything was clean, everything but me.

I made myself go up to my room, I threw my bag onto my bed. I grabbed some clothes and went to the bathroom. I took a quick shower and pulled on my jeans. I caught my reflection in the mirror before I pulled on my shirt. I just look at myself, I was pale, my brown hair was past my ears, my blue eyes seemed to dull. Almost lifeless, there was dark circles under my eyes.

My eyes flickered to a small razor blade. "No. I'm not that weak." I scolded myself. I looked at the blade longer, I felt a burning sensation through my body. Without thinking I grabbed the blade and brought it to my wrist.

I made a long slice along my wrist. I began to make more and more. Loving the feeling that was coming with every slice. I ran out of room on each arm. I looked at my chest and cocked my head. I made a small 'x' shape on the left side of my chest.

I finally remembered that I were I was. I quickly grabbed a paper towel and got it wet. I cleaned up my wrist and my chest. I watched as the water turned from clear to a pinkish color. After I finished I washed the blade and placed it back where I found it. I threw away the paper towel and darted to my room.

I curled up in a ball and just cried. I didn't want to remember what I saw. I what I did. My arms, and my chest stung as I pulled myself in a closer ball. Tears ran down my cheeks as I began to cry. I shook my head, 'Your such an idiot! You were falling for a someone you don't you. He wasn't even into you!' I screamed in my head. I knew the truth, he wasn't into me. He didn't care about me!

Sadness was soon replaced by anger. I took him to meet my mamma and papa! I took him somewhere I wouldn't dare take anyone ever! He broke my walls down. And made me think that he cared about me. That he wanted me the way I wanted him!

I threw my bag off my bed, it hit the wall. I heard a thump when it hit the floor. I went over to it and opened it. I saw the box that I had found yesterday night. I took it out carefully, I didn't want it to break. I sat on my bed and looked at the box. It had beautiful writing in it. The words 'I'll never forget.' I felt another lump form in my throat. I opened the box and the tears just fell.

Inside lay my mothers ring. It was a simple band, with a little diamond. The words on the inside said, 'Amelia, I will never forget you.' I knew that my father had it engraved. I looked the ring over and over. I felt a small smile form against my lips.

I placed the ring back in the box and hid it under my bed. I knew a good place to put it. I laid down on my bed and snuggled up into my blankets. I nuzzled my pillow and I slowly fell asleep.