I knew it was selfish. But there was nothing I could do. I felt so unloved. Unwanted. Useless. There was nothing else I could do. So I did the only thing that I could think of. To escape this world. I knew it was cruel. It would leave millions of fans devastated. But I couldn't carry on. I couldn't wake up one more day knowing Louis didn't love me the way I loved him and that he never would. It fucking hurt. So I wrote a few notes. To all my loved ones. Mum. Gemma. Liam. Nialler. Lou. Even Lux. And finally it came down to the last one. Louis's. Writing Louis was probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It was like saying goodbye to the person I loved most in the world. Who was I kidding, it was exactly that.
