I think I cried the most I've ever cried in my entire 23 years when I read the letter Harry left me. To say it broke my heart was an understatement. God, I could practically hear my heart shattering into tiny piece that I would never be able to glue back together. Ever.
Louis, I've never been very good at putting how I feel into words. I don't think I'd ever be able to put into words the way I felt about you. It's just to indescribable. To say I was inlove with you was an understatement. You were my everything. You still are. My Sun, my moon and all my stars. You are my entire fucking galaxy Louis. And it hurts, knowing you're my everything and I'm your nothing. These past few years have been incredible. They've been indescribably brilliant. I didn't think it was possible to love somebody as much as I love you Louis. And I don't think I'll ever love anyone or anything more than you. God, you were perfect. I still remember the first time I looked into those gorgeous eyes of yours and got lost. I knew there was no going back. Even then. Because Louis, you're unforgettable. No one could ever stop loving you. You're literally the definition of perfection. I guess I should end this off by thanking you. So thank you Louis, for making me the happiest I ever was in my entire life. Every time I was with you everything else just faded away. The feeling you gave me, well I can never put that into words. Don't blame yourself Louis, please. This was going to happen, sooner or later. I guess it just happened sooner. We all knew how unhappy I really was. To end this Louis, I just want to say that I'll never ever stop loving you. God this was hard to write. Parts of me don't even want you to read this because I hate to see you cry. I hope your heart isn't broken. And I pray you never have to go through the same thing I did. I wish you everything you could ever hope for and more. I hope you have a healthy baby and lead a happy life. I love you more than Romeo loved Juliet loubear. Do me a favour please? Never forget me. No. Never forget us. The memories we had. The feel of my lips on yours. I want you to always keep me in your heart like I'll always keep you in mine. Theres so much more to say but we both know it's a waste of time because by the time you read this I'll be gone. I love you Louis Tomlinson, always remember that. God, I love you. All the love, always, Hazzbear xxx
