"Hey Hazz" I said, looking down at the grey gravestone in front of me. Its been a year since Harry died. A year since I lost the love of my life. "I wrote you a letter Hazz. I... I guess I'll read it to you now. Okay, here goes" "Harry, I didn't think it would ever be possible to be happy again after I lost you. And God, I still have days where all I wanna do is go to bed and never wake up. But I keep going. I keep going for you. Because I know you wouldnt have wanted me to give up. I keep going for Edward. He was born three months ago. His full name is Edward Harry Tomlinson. He's named after you, Hazz. He reminds me so much of you. Every time I look at him I find myself remembering the first time I looked into your eyes. And how I wish I could go back to then. But i guess theres no use in wishing. Because wishing makes nothing better. It's just our escape from reality. Because in all honesty Hazz, reality sucks. You were my escape. But then I did what I did. And I lost you because of it. And I know Hazz, i know you told me not to blame myself, but I do. I know if I hadn't slept with her, there'd still have been a chance to save you. And I'm sorry Hazz. I'm so fucking sorry. Because without you, I feel like half of a whole. I love you Harry Edward Styles. I love you endlessly. And I hope with all my heart I'll see you again one day. Even if it's just in my wildest dreams." With that, I wiped the tears that were falling from my eyes and placed the bunch of flowers on his grave. "Goodbye, Harry".
