Locked (Emison)

Lost it

Emily's POV

It's been exactly four days since Spencer came. My head is a mess right now, I can't even think straight with everything that's happening right now. Mona still didn't have luck looking for the computer, I'm starting to lose hope on it, it seems like it's not a computer from the prison and we probably won't be able to find it. Now Melissa and Spencer are always together, they haven't done anything but they are always there, looking at us, observing our moves, following us. I can't even sleep good, I feel like they could appear in any moment to hurt anyone of us. That's in one hand, but in the other one I have this all Ali's trail thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy she has an opportunity to get away from this hell but at the same time I can't stand the idea of losing her. It's been almost two months since we started dating, all I can think is about her, she's the only thing that makes me smile. But the best for her is get out from here, and more now that Spencer is here, I would never forgive myself if anything happens to her because all this mess, it's all my fault. Sometimes I just want to go to the little room in the basement and hide there for forever, just disappear and make all the problems disappear, but I can't do that. We spend most of the time in our room, it's the only place where we can actually feel safe, it's the only place where they can't see us or be around. I don't ever leave the room without the knife, not even to go to the shower, I'm too afraid for leaving it there, being disarmed around the prison. This is actually a thing that I've been thinking about these past days, I'm afraid, I'm so sacred about this. I know what that girl is capable of, I know how they play, they're not gonna go directly to me. Right now I'm on the floor sit next to Hanna, she's so worried too, like all of us but I don't know, she looks so different. She used to be the funny one with Cece but now both of them are quiet. Aria is just anxious, and Alison... her head is a mess too, she has a lot of things going on and she's just like in another world.

"It's freezing" Says Ali, she's on her bed.

"Yeah, it's pretty cold" Says Hanna looking at her.

It's really freezing, these suits are shit, for summer it's okay but they are not warm at all and always during winter we'll die because of the cold.

"Come here" Is say to her, I'm freezing too.

She slowly stands up and gets closer to me. She sits between my legs and wrap my arms around her stomach.

"Guys, we can't stay like this forever" Says Cece from my bed.

"What could we do? Go out there and basically give ourselves to them so they can do whatever they are planning?" Says Aria with that anxiety.

"Calm, nothing is gonna happen" Is say trying to calm them and myself.

"You know that's not true" Says Hanna with a low voice.

I just close my eyes and try to rest a second. What Hanna said is true, but we're gonna die if we stay one more day in here. My head hurt, my body hurts of being in here all the day, we need to do something.

"Remember those weeks after Jenna left? We were happy" I Suddenly said, maybe if I remind them all the good things and good moment we had they decide to get out.

"We were" Says Alison in a low voice.

I grab her hands, seriously seeing her like this kills me. Seeing all of them, we used to be a fun group, always laughing, making jokes and trying to make our life in prison the best one that could be.

"I wish we could go back there" Says Aria from the other side of the room.

That's it, this is depressing and it's because of me. I'm gonna end with this now, I don't need their help, I can do it by my own. I slowly stand up, I don't wanna hurt Alison by making the angry moves I usually do when I feel like this. She looks at me with a questioning face, I need an excuse.