Fading Away (AFI Fanfic)

Pizza, Making Out, and a Question

We had decided to come back to my apartment. I didn't feel like asking Ashton and the boys if they were staying. I didn't want the rest of the day to be strange. So we all packed into the boys' van and drove to my place which was about 10 minutes away. I was squished between Luke and Michael. Michael was so sweet and was hugging me the whole way back home while we listened to Paramore and Green Day. Luke was singing next to me and trust me he sings like an angel. I never realized how much I missed my boys. They were my best friends and I didn't notice how much fun we used to have.

We finally made it to the house and the first thing Michael said when we arrived was, "I want pizza. Anna, please order some pizza." I gave in because I knew he wouldn't give up until I gave in. I got inside and ordered four large pizzas and then found the boys on the couch. Ashton looked really sleepy. So I slid next to him and he gave me the biggest smile. "Hi," he chuckled. "Hey," I responded. He just pulled me in. "I've missed you so much. I can't even explain." His words made me melt. He had missed me too. Then of course I heard Calum making kissy noise then the rest of the boys followed. "Oh fuck off," I said. Ashton just giggled at me.

"Do you still have FIFA?" Calum asked. "Yes go ahead. Have fun," I said. Calum screeched like a little girl. Calum and Luke looked for the game and put it in to play. They pulled chairs close to the TV and started their game. The doorbell rang and Michael ran to the door. He opened the door quickly and paid for the pizza. He slammed the door closed and instantly opened the pizza and dug in. Soon Luke and Calum ran to the pizza and Ashton and I were left behind. Ashton whispered, "Don't leave." He squeezed me tighter and I looked into his eyes. He looked at me and soon enough our lips were attached. The kiss was passionate and I've wanted this so much before. I felt so loved and happy. Ashton was in my embrace again and I couldn't be happier.

We stayed on the couch for a while longer and we both decided we wanted pizza. We walked to the kitchen and there was only one box left. That means that three boys ate at least one box for each of them. They were like pigs and you wouldn't expect that because they were all really skinny. Ashton and I quickly dug in to make sure that we could enjoy some pizza before the rest of the boys devoured it. It was some really good pizza but I still couldn't understand how the boys could eat so much.

I kept thinking while I was eating about them being on tour. They could only be here for so long before they had to leave again. So I decided to ask. "How long until you guys have to leave again?" Michael looked at me and sighed, "2 days." 2 days. That was all. Then they would be gone again. They would be enjoying a life without me. "Let's not worry about that right now. I want to enjoy this," Ashton said. I just nodded. I didn't want to think about the possibilities anymore either. Luke and Calum made their way to FIFA again and Michael took a nap. I dragged Ashton to my room.

As soon as the door was closed I pushed him to the wall and kissed him. I was mad. I was mad at the fact that Ashton and the boys were amazing yet they had to be so far away. They lived a life on tour and I was here waiting for them to return. I knew they never would. They were too popular. If they weren't on tour they would be writing an album instead. I kissed him hard and let him know that I was mad. He gripped my hips as if he were mad too. He moved us to the bed and we continued to be angry at the world. I flipped us over and I tugged at his shirt. He wouldn't take it off though. I tried to take it off myself but he stopped me. "We can't Anna. We will end up regretting it. You remember what we said." He was right.

Flashback

We were sitting on a bench at the park. We had just gotten Starbucks and we were sipping down our drinks while talking. Ashton said, "Can we make a rule?" "What do you mean?" I asked. "Well we have been getting serious lately and I want to make sure of something. I think it's important that we set this rule." "Okay, what rule?" I asked concerned. "I think we should wait to you know until later on when we both think it is right." "Okay. How about we won't do it unless we both agree and we are safe." I thought it was good that Ashton had said this because I had thought about it too. I was worried that we might rush into it too fast and we would regret it. Ashton nodded in agreement to my suggestion and we continued to sit and drink.

End of Flashback

We settled down and just cuddled. I began to think a lot about the past. I remembered the dates Ashton and I had. I remembered how we used to cuddle and watch a movie together. I missed these things. We could no longer do these simple things. "Anna. Stop crying. I promise everything is fine." I didn't realize I was crying until he said it. I had tears all over my face. He pulled me closer. "Okay I can't take this." I looked up at him. He grabbed me by the hand and dragged me downstairs. I was confused but I followed.

He sounded angry but said, "Boys. Who wants Anna to come on tour with us?" Everyone screamed with joy. "Wait is she really coming with us?" Luke asked. Ashton turned to me and gave me a look with these cute puppy dog eyes. "Ashton, I would love to, but I can't afford it. I can barely afford this apartment." "Don't worry about it. I'll pay for everything," He said it. "I'll help," Calum said. I thought about it for a second. Could I really give them this burden? I have this apartment and they fly a lot. That would be a lot of plane tickets to pay for. But I guess they are a popular band. They make a lot of money and they offered. "Yes. I'll go on tour with you." The whole room seemed to explode with joy and then the next thing I knew everyone was hugging me. Then after that hug was over, Ashton kissed me like there was no tomorrow. I guess it would be a new life now. I would be on tour with the boys. Ashton and I would be together more. Did Ashton and I have another chance?

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