Frozen In Time

2. The Way it Always Hurts

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So not so recently I decided to break up with my boyfriend. I know I don't have that many followers but I feel like I want to pour my heart out just for the hell of it. This is my opinion on my past relationship...

At first it was perfect. He was handsome and funny and he made me feel good about myself.
I remember always talking to him late at night and wishing that I could be with him every second of the day.

That lasted for about a month, then slowly overtime I noticed he was changing. I started thinking to myself what would it be like to be single again... So two weeks after thinking about it I broke up with him out of the blue. For no reason at all.

At first it was hard, I tried getting him back and as we all know it obviously wouldn't work.

That was almost two months ago, I can't get him out of my head. I have another guy in my life and he's perfect only problem is... It's long distance. So no cuddles for this gal. Also another problem... I'm still not over my ex!!! I know I know that's wrong, I tried so hard to get over him.

I pretnded like I was fine I even gave myself a make over and told everyone life's been great only problem is... It's not it's an emotional wreck ever since I broke up with him my anxiety has gotten worse.

So now come to last night last night I sent him this:
I'm going to be 100% honest with you. The only reason I'm doing this is because someone I trust believes it'll be the best for me. I still like you, I know I know I'm the one who broke up with you but I never stopped liking you. You're contstantly on my mind, even when I don't want you to be. I'm so lost when I look at you. All I think is "I'd give anything to be with him again." But I know that's so wrong. I want to forget about you but I can't. I am always denying myself because I know you don't feel the same way. I treat you like crap, you're right I only text you when I need you but that's because I trust you that much still. I've always taken your advice into account. This is getting off track now the point is I still really care about you. If you don't feel the same way, which you probably won't, please just tell me and I'll learn to move along. I just need something from you.

And I knew for a fact he didn't feel the same. He told me and now it's even more awkward between us that I couldn't even get the courage to go to school that day.

And now looking back at it I see how stupid it was of me to think he'd run to my house after that text, ring my doorbell and kiss me senseless.

Also it's really obvious and I'm a very closed off girl. So life is never good in my hands and I leave you with this Note Of Knowledge:
Men don't make you who you are,
But they sure as hell are amazing
Even when they're stupid
So if you love someone male or female
Call them, tell them you love them
And don't break up with them for stupid reasons
Because you won't get them back.

There's my dramatic love life.
Forever Lost,
Maevee.