17 and Pregnant (Completed)

Living A Lie

Monday came and I was not the least bit happy at all. I haven't seen Alex since he left yesterday, which made me extra grumpy. Even more than usual! He didn't even text me his usual morning msg which made me sad. Maybe I'm just having pregnancy hormones again? Idek.

I got out of bed slowly because of my baby bump and went to my bathroom to take a shower. I sung in the shower to Bad Intentions a song I absolutely love.

This is the face I wear treading the riptide
Abysmal oceans where good girls go to die
I wanna love somebody
Wanna feel in love all on me
But after everything I still believe in true love
Not being able to find it
Damn it tears me up
And I know it's my fault
I know it's my fault
Let's take a trip, ten thousand miles above the clouds
We can stay up here until we figure it out
I don't wanna go home
Don't wanna be alone (be alone)

I've got some damn bad intentions
I've got some damn bad intentions
I got some secrets I forgot to mention
Haven't learned my lesson
I've got some damn bad intentions
I see the world in 25 dimensions
I've seen evil reign over perfection
Blood heat over tension
And I know oh oh oh

You say you love the way the storms blow
But when it comes you close your window
You hate the fighting in the world
So you bring the battle home and fight until it's yours
Fight until I'm gone
And there's holes on the walls
Written in the sand
Deception on my lips and there's blood on your hands
And I'm tired of keepin' lies (tired of keepin' lies)
You can see it in my eyes
I don't wanna die

I've just got some damn bad intentions
I've got some damn bad intentions
I got some secrets I forgot to mention
Haven't learned my lesson oh oh oh oh oh
I've got some damn bad intentions
I've got some damn bad intentions
I got some secrets I forgot to mention
Haven't learned my lesson oh oh oh oh oh

I know we've made a graveyard of this all
I know I don't feel too sober now (no, no)
I wanna lie awake with your black soul
Count your fears if you let me

Baby I just want your damn bad intentions
I've got some damn bad intentions
I got some secrets I forgot to mention
Haven't learned my lesson oh oh oh oh oh

I've got some damn bad intentions
I've got some damn bad intentions
I got some secrets I forgot to mention
Haven't learned my lesson oh oh oh oh oh

Then I stepped out the shower and dried my hair leaving it curly and down. I got out some maternity shirts and decided on the tiffany blue long-sleeved one with some black leggings and some long light brown boots. Even with a belly, I still look yummy.

I grabbed my bag and left my room going to kitchen and seeing that nobody was there. Hmmm, weird. I grabbed a apple and left to my car. I drove to school seeing a couple make out on the front doors and I smiled.

Me and Alex would do that, I thought to myself. But when the couple pulled apart, my heart came crashing down into my stomach and I dropped my apple. Alex was kissing Lexi. Tears started clouding my vision and I blocked out all of the noise and went back to my car.

It had started raining and was starting to pick up some wind with it. I started driving and didn't stop anytime soon. I looked down at my phone to see it ringing and when I looked up headlights flashed in front of me and then everything became black. Pain flooded through my body and I couldn't help but think about my twins before I went under.