Sugar Baby

12

its 1am

unable to fall asleep

so you lay in the pool

bloods dripping from your wrists

but you feel so numb

the waters warm

but your cold

you're feeling lonely in this big apartment

but you like being alone

you thought all this money would take your loneliness away

but it hasn't 

the gifts don't take the pain away

the money doesn't fix your broken heart

but you still keep living this lifestyle

you sleep with these guys

you hate it but you still do it

you think it'll help fill the empty space in your heart

but it doesn't

the only good thing about living like this is that you don't feel so worthless

but you still wonder

is it really worth living?

will you always be unwanted?

will someone ever love you?

you can see the city lights

you can see the moon

and you think its beautiful

but you're still sad

your tears haven't stopped

you still haven't forgotten about him

you still love him so much

you've never felt apart of this world

but when you were with him you thought maybe it wasn't so bad being alive

you're used to being alone

but you can never get used to feeling lonely

you want him

and only him

you haven't talked to him in a while

you want to

but you know you shouldn't

i miss you