Loving Him

Mistake?

Once I got home remembering the night of events that had just occurred I glanced at the clock which read 12:30 and rushed to bed. I had work in the morning and the last thing I wanted to do was be late. I grabbed my blankets and curled into a small ball ensuring that every inch of my body was covered. I drifted off to sleep and he was my last thought.
I woke up the next morning and made some crappy coffee for myself and dumped the pure black substance into a chipped white mug and threw on my yellow ruffled top with a black pencil skirt that went half up my knee with some black high heels and hauled my butt out of the door. Outside was freezing which was unusual but I walked the seven miles to work stopping to get the newspaper and immediately threw it away realizing I don't even read the paper.I walked into the office building smelling food and quickly got sick to my stomach? I ran to the bathroom trying to not run over anyone. When in got there I didn't even bother shutting the stall door before throwing chunks up.
Maybe I had a stomach flu. But then my jaw fell to the floor. He didn't use protection. "Shit! No no no no please no" I chanted to myself not caring if other people heard me as I speed walked out of the building and to the pharmacy. I grabbed literally 17 different pregnancy tests and checked out. I speed walked to the house and threw my bag on the floor as I peed on 17 sticks. I waited in anticipation to see positive on all of them. I started balling right there. I didn't even know him. This was a one night thing. What was his last name? What was his first name again? I needed to tell him but how? I curled up on the bathroom floor and cried until I fell asleep. Did I just ruin my life?